Bullies drove me to the edge of suicide

N-DUBZ beauty Tulisa today reveals how years of violent bullying pushed her to the brink of SUICIDE.

Growing up on a tough estate, the MOBO -winning pop star was abused and beaten daily by a gang of schoolkids and began to think there was no other way out.

And when her fortunes changed as she grew famous, the CYBER BULLIES pounced, posting vile messages, taunts and threats to her on the internet.

"Every day felt like the end of the world," said Tulisa, who was forced to change schools THREE TIMES in a bid to dodge the torment. In an emotional interview to support the News of the World's Click Bullying Into Touch campaign 21-year-old Tulisa admitted: "From 13 to 16 I'd sit in my room every night crying because of the way I was bullied.

"I was in a dark, dark place and I turned to self-harm. I would cut myself on a daily basis. Bullying drove me to do that.

"I had no life and I felt unpopular. There were many times when I thought it would just be easier if I ended it and killed myself."

Tulisa, who grew up in north-west London, has special contempt for the cowardly cyber bullies. "I'm so glad to be backing this campaign," she told us.

"It's something I've been through. Kids become really lost, especially when it seems there's no escape from abuse on their computers or mobiles.

"It's horrible. I was even plagued by people setting up fake profiles pretending to be me and spouting lies."

To hammer home the message N-Dubz - set to hit the Top 5 today with new album Against All Odds - have recorded a special RU Cyber Safe anthem for our charity partners Beatbullying as a FREE download at the CyberMentors.org .uk website.

"My first memory of being bullied was in nursery when I was five," said Tulisa. "A boy of seven in the primary school next door used to attack me. There were plenty bruises and pain. At my next school another guy made life a misery, punching and kicking me on a regular basis for THREE YEARS. Mum found out and I switched schools. But at an all-girls secondary it started again, so much bitchiness. Being pretty made you a target.

"They'd threaten you and spread nasty rumours. After one nasty attack with a bottle I was too scared to leave my house. But I felt I couldn't go to the police because I'd be called a snitch."

Forced to quit school yet again, Tulisa finally decided to rally her strength and snap out of victim mode. "I'd been beaten up so many times I couldn't even feel it any more," she said. "So I said to myself, 'F*** this! F*** everyone! I'm NOT going to sit here moping around! I'm BETTER than these people!' By the time I got to my final school I had an attitude that told bullies I wasn't to be messed with."

Now, despite her own experiences of cyber bullying, Tulisa actually uses her MySpace site to help other victims.

"Girls message me on what they're going through," she said. "I tell them to find something to get passionate about. I had music. It's about finding power, energy and self worth."

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