
With only £20,000 left from her £1.9million jackpot she reveals she is battling to overcome the nightmare dark depression that has plagued her since her win aged just 16.
In her frankest interview ever Callie, 22, (whom you can see speaking on video below) told how despair drove her to attempt suicide THREE TIMES, and how she fears her two children will be taken from her.
Incredibly she admitted: "I honestly wish I'd never won the lottery money - and knowing what I know now I should have just given it all back to them.
"I was just too young to cope with suddenly having that amount in the bank when I'd come from nothing.
"In the past six years I've sunk into a black hole - a black hole that at one point I thought I could never crawl out of.
"I was spending a fortune on cocaine, a nasty evil drug which tears your life apart. I'll be honest, about £¼ million of my win has been wasted on it. Most of it wasn't for me, it was for my ex Nicky Lawson who was addicted to it.
"But it was all my money that bought it. And that makes me absolutely disgusted with myself for allowing that to happen. I might as well have thrown it down the toilet.
"I started taking coke within weeks of winning the Lottery and pretty soon I was hooked. It made me forget about all the problems in my life and at the start made me feel like everything was OK.
"But that didn't last long and soon drugs made me fall into a deep, dark place. Somewhere which made me feel I didn't want to live any more.
"I honestly just felt so low I thought in death I'd find a safer happier place."
But brave Callie is now determined to turn her life round for the better, spurred on by chilling memories of the moment she hit her lowest point last November.
She already had a history of attempted suicide, once before the big win and then several years ago by overdose. But late in 2008 the demons returned.
She'd not touched cocaine for three years and had rid herself of sponging fiance Nicky, but taken up with new boyfriend Ryan Thompson, a drug dealer.
Speaking from the three-bedroom terrace house where she now lives with her mum in Cumbria, Callie told us: "Suddenly Ryan made my life spiral out of control all over again, dabbling with cocaine on a couple of weekends.
"It wasn't like Ryan was a bad guy, unlike Nicky. He was just young and naive and had fallen in with the wrong crowd.
"It wasn't anything like when I was doing cocaine with Nicky but it sent me back to that dark place where I started to feel like I was better off dead.
"I was still recovering from my on-off relationship with Nicky and mentally I wasn't well. He was sending me up to 100 abusive texts a day. One said, 'Why don't you do everyone a favour and finish yourself off?'
"It was at the end of November on Ryan's birthday when everything just crumbled. We'd all been drinking heavily and doing cocaine. It was a Saturday night.
"A few of us went back to my house but then Ryan didn't come home. I was calling him and calling him but he didn't answer.
"I knew he was with another girl and I just couldn't cope with any more disappointment in my life. The children were with my mum and dad and I just remember collapsing on the floor of my living room and sobbing. I was so wrecked on drugs and drink that most of it's a bit of a blur.
"But I couldn't sleep as I was so wired. And because of the cocaine I just started to get more and more anxious until the only answer was to kill myself.
"I swear it wasn't a cry for help. I just wanted to die. I simply couldn't take any more.
"So I staggered to the bathroom and took a razor blade to my wrist. Ryan later found me and thought I was dead. He was high on drugs too but with a friend managed to get me to hospital in a car.
"I was going in and out of consciousness and willing myself to die. I remember feeling angry with Ryan because I just didn't want to be saved.
"After the hospital stitched me up a nurse said, 'What are you going to do if we let you go?' And I said, 'I'll do it again.'
"But after a couple of hours they couldn't keep me any longer so they let Ryan take me home then sent a counsellor to talk to me.
"And since then I have NOT touched any drugs and I've started to rebuild my life because I never ever want to feel as low as I was that day.
"I love my children to bits and know I have to sort myself out for them. But without them honestly I think I'd have killed myself a long time ago."
Ryan was later jailed for 22 months after cops found £5,000 worth of cocaine and a stun gun he had hidden in Callie's cupboard.
When Callie won the lottery back in 2003 as a £3.60 -an-hour shop assistant it should have been the start of a wonderful new carefree life.
But today she reveals how it all began to unravel within weeks when she fell for jobless Nicky - the man she blames for getting her hooked on drugs, and the man she's battling over custody of one of their two young children.
"The first time I ever tried coke was because of Nicky," she said.
"It was barely a month after I'd won the money. Him and a friend drove me down to the docks, parked up and got out a white substance I'd never seen before.
"Nicky said it was cocaine and would make me feel amazing. I was so young and naive that when he said, 'Go on, Callie, don't be boring, it's only a line' I did it.
"Pretty soon Nicky and I were doing it all the time.
"We moved into a bungalow I bought in Flimby and it was just partying all night every night. I was so impressionable Nicky brainwashed me into doing everything he said. He used to get money from me and go and score drugs for him and all his friends.
"Nicky was blowing £500 every day on cocaine as he needed about 10 grams daily just for himself. I was never that hooked but pretty much every weekend I'd snort up to three grams.
"It was only when I fell pregnant I knew I had to give it up. And up until last November I did, because I wanted so much to be a good mum."
But it took five long years of mental torture before Callie could give up Nicky.
"He's a vile, disgusting germ of a man I wish to God I'd never met," she said. "He has spent about half a million just for himself and even used to draw money out of my bank account to buy me my own Christmas and birthday presents.
"And as if the drugs and taking my money weren't bad enough he then went and slept with my younger sister Lauren when she was just 16.
"Like a fool I even took him back after that. It ruined my chances with a brillant boy called Joe who I think could have really been great for me.
"Nicky manipulated Lauren just like he did me so I never, ever was mad with her.
"I know what Nicky's capable of. He lured her with drugs and ruined her life, too." Callie is brutally open about how she squandered her £1.9 million.
"I won't lie, I've blown most of it," she said. "But, do you know what? I don't care.
"Because all that money has brought me is heartache. Yes I enjoyed buying fast cars, holidays and clothes for the baby but honestly I'm glad it's nearly all gone.
"I have the £20,000 in the bank, and that's about it. But that's a lot more than most 22-year-olds.
"Once I spent £20,000 taking 11 of the family to Disneyland Paris. And I splashed out £12,000 on two boob jobs.
"But I can't think about it as it just depresses me and I need to move on. As long as me and the kids have enough to live comfortably then that's enough for me. I did set up a trust fund for my son when he was born and it had £30,000 in it.
"Every penny I made from selling interviews went into that account along with his child benefit. And I never once touched it. But Nicky treated it like his own and now there's only £15,000 left.
"For as long as I can remember I've suffered from depression. And there are times in my life when I just haven't been able to cope, like the first time I tried to kill myself with a blade when I was 13.

"I think everyone thought money would help mend my lost childhood but it just made things much, much worse.
"Suddenly I went from having nothing to having more money than I could ever imagine, and I was only 16.
"Everyone all over the world was reading stories about me and I hated being in the spotlight.
"With hindsight I wish someone had taken the money off me when I won it and given it back to me when I was mature enough to handle it.
"But now, thanks to the counselling and my family, there are more and more times when my life is starting to feel more balanced.
"And when I feel myself slipping back to a dark place I'm now getting better at coping with my depression.
"I was on anti-depressants years ago but not any more. Now I just rely on my friends and family to help me through.
"And being a mum gives me so much joy I know I have to stay on top of things.
"I just want to provide them with the peaceful safe environment they deserve. They make me so proud and I want them to feel the same about me."
And there's plenty of people rooting for her.
Last night a representative of Lotto organisers Camelot told us: "Our team of advisors have always offered help and support to Callie and we're still here if she ever wants to take advantage of this."
Callie, who has a son aged four and a daughter who's nearly two, now dreams of finding love with a man she can rely on.
She said: "After Nicky slept with my sister I turned into a cold heartless cow. I lost all my trust and am so scared to fall in love in case someone abuses me like that again.
"All I want is to settle down and give the kids a stable family life, but I just don't know if I'll ever give my heart to another man.
"Nicky calls me a slag when I refuse to go back to him. But in all my life I've only had two one-night stands.
"I did meet someone a month ago but for now we're taking it slowly as I don't want to get hurt.
"We haven't even had sex yet and we're just enjoying getting to know each other.
"I just hope one day I find a man I can be happy with and who doesn't hurt me. But I'll never ever let myself fall for someone like Nicky again."
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Wow, this girl should try and maybe take one ounce of responsibility for her actions instead of blaming everyone else. She made all those choice but all she does is blame both her boyfriends that she chose to be with.
By Ben .. Posted November 3 2009 at 3:15 PM.
best of luck calie. sounds like you have two lovely kids ... not sure what that means to you but i'd give it all away in a heartbeat just for that ... a supportive, mature, understanding and sexually compatible companion is nice to have also, but not necessarily a must have ... thanks for sharing ... great story ... good luck :-)
By beroccaboy.. Posted September 30 2009 at 9:11 AM.
I read a comment by someone who was coward enough to not use his own name, but he called himself marco polo, so you think she lived the high life by partying for a few years and blowing the money away, your such an idiot to promote this lifestyle, it is her choice to spend the money how she wants, but her drug abuse has turned her into a depressed suicidal person, who is probably unfit to be a mother, and also think of the people who benefit from her drug abuse, drug dealers? who are the real scum of this earth! live your life well with purposeful positive intent everyone!
By karl A.. Posted September 28 2009 at 12:44 AM.
sad, sad individual, blames everyone else when it was all her own doing! how many men have you been with in the last year never mind since you won the money? shame you dont think as much of your kids as you do of men, you blew your money what did nicky walk away with? nothing! apart from two gorgeous kids who he loves to bits, your a looser callie !!!!
By leona.. Posted September 18 2009 at 11:25 AM.
Way too much to deal with at such a young age, anyone who claims that they wouldn't have made mistakes with that much cash at 16 is kidding themselves. Good on you for getting back on track, Callile. Don't listen to negative people, just try to be a good mum and be happy with yourself.
By Katie.. Posted September 8 2009 at 2:52 PM.
Callie,
I read your article, I'm sure it was a very hard thing to write.
Know one thing that Heavenly Father Loves you and Jesus Christ has paved the way for us to clean up our lives no matter who we are. He loves you too.
I'm absolutely discusted at everyone who has been writing all these negative comments here. You are cleaning up your life, so don't listen to them. We all do stupid things in our lives and don't go out to tell it to the world. Maybe many others can avoid the same mistakes you have made.
Take the time to look up and gain confidence in your savior. You have two beautiful children, do all that you can to help raise them right. Time now is on your side, just keep the faith. There are some missionaries from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints who will sit down with you to discuss Christ and Heavenly Father. They have made my life more meaningfull than you can imagine. Give them a try and keep on doing good from here one out...
: )
By R_D.. Posted September 6 2009 at 5:38 AM.
EASY COME, EASY GO - as they say in Nigeria
By JOHN.. Posted September 5 2009 at 7:31 PM.
Callie... I live in the same village as you.... when you won all that cash, why didnt you just move away? Most people would!!! We all know there is too much greed and jealousy here, everyone will stab you in the back. Everyone around here knows how the Lawsons operate, they've had the same reputation for years!!... You knew all about them too! Still, you chose to stay here, in this area, and be involved with a trashy family who would rob their own granny. you loose lass. shame.
By Skint, or so I tell everyone!.. Posted September 3 2009 at 11:41 PM.
You can win the lottery in Brittain at age 16? What's the youngest you can enter? In America if a 16 year old won it would be considered void and even the parents couldn't claim it if it could be proven, WTF how could this happen?
By KIMBERLY.. Posted September 3 2009 at 10:27 AM.
I remember what I was like at 16, could you belive an even bigger pratt than I am now!
There but for the grace of God go I
By mike panero.. Posted September 3 2009 at 12:56 AM.
Frankly Im disgusted!! People absolutely struggle to make a living these days and this child (Because that is what 16 year olds are) was deemed responsible to deal with a huge sum of money? sticking most of it up her nose and we are supposed to feel sympathetic? Well Im not - nobody spent the money but herself - it is wasted and many people would have been grateful for just a percentage of what she spent on cocaine.
These stories totally annoy me and even moreso going to press to complain about her GOOD LUCK that turned sour because she had no common sense and completely stupid.
Not impressed.
By jill.. Posted September 2 2009 at 11:48 PM.
I Feel Sorry For Her. Im 16 And I Know If I Won That Amount Of Money I'd Just Blow It, At 16 You Dont Think 'Oh Ill Spend The Money On Education' You Want To Have Fun And It Will Get Wasted. Most 16 Year Olds Dont Really No The Value Of Money Cause Their Still Gettin Money Of Their Parents When They Want It, I No I Am I Dont No The Value Of Money, Yeh 1Mill+ Is A Lot Of Money Yeh But Thats Not To Say It Wont Get Blown! And With The Cocaine, Has No One Heard Of Pear Preasure, I Dont Think Adults Now Days Know How Hard It Is Bein A Teenager And Wanting To Fit In, Things Have Changed Since They Were Teenagers, It Is Hard Not To Get Forced Into Something You Dont Wanna Do If Its Going To Make You Fit In!
By Alice Jarvis.. Posted September 2 2009 at 6:17 PM.
I have to bite my cynical tongue! Dear Callie - 1) love and care for your children 2) learn how to spell 3) do constructive things for yourself and family each day without thinking you need a MAN to define you. Go forward doing the right thing.
By dave.. Posted September 2 2009 at 5:21 PM.
idiots always blame others, look what that 250k could have done,,,,,helped children waiting for operations and only need the money to have it.
could have invested in youth clubs and got government sponsorship as well
i begrudge playing the lottery week in and out for people like you to win it and then bleady waste it just like this government have done. Building a 700m pound tent then charging people to go in it
Its bleady digusting how you and the carrol man have treated this money
By stephen atkinson.. Posted September 2 2009 at 1:58 PM.
Sounds to me she had a pretty good time for a while there. Life is good! We are all dead in the end. All these self righteous people with there know it all comments. I laugh at you. Live your life the way you want and live with the results. I bet half of these people that put her down have the most boring life. She has probably lived more in those few years then they have in there lifetime. I feel for people that make mistakes and know they did and feel bad. I don't feel for people who think they know how to live and put people down because they mess up. You are the scum of the earth. Thanks for letting me share, and I won't keep coming back. Lol
By Marco Polo.. Posted September 2 2009 at 11:35 AM.
This may sound obscure to the western world. I can't imagine my 16 year old sister to manage her economy without adherence to family(Mom & Dad) instructions and ethics. Though, it is a learning point for every person on earth. It have made me to strongly believe on alternative source of income. Whatever we do, let's try to invest on humanity. A woman in Nigeria won N3 million naira, she decided to give it to beggers in the street.
By Ozioko, Ikenna.. Posted September 2 2009 at 10:47 AM.
Oh my god!! what kind of a person is this Callie girl. Even as early as 10 years old, i knew what investment was. even if i didnt fully understand the concept, i could let my father or mother or any elderly person i trust do it for me. i am totally disgusted with this story. people are struggling all over the world. she gets the chance to make her life, her kids life, and her kid's kid's lives better, and she blows it.... on drugs and breasts implants. my god!!! how dumb can a girl get at 16?!!!!
By charles ofei.. Posted September 2 2009 at 10:17 AM.
What's incredible is to be thrust into a position where you would not have went, if not for the money.
I mean it's crazy, you can get married in Scotland at 16 and win the lottery, but when it comes to morgage and decent driver insurance. Maybe america has the right idea, 21 for everything. At least if anyone did illegal drinking it'd be 18 rather than 13.
She'll get past this, i mean everybody does if they keep moving forward.. just a) don't pretend to her it'll be easy and b) certainly don't lecture her.
our choices are ours, whether for better or worse. if anyone thinks they'd have done better at that age, with the exact same circumstances... i doubt it.
personally considering all she's been through, i'd still view her opinions on economic turmoil and future aspirations of humanity... more so than Megan Fox or worse, Jordan.
By Mark.. Posted September 2 2009 at 9:28 AM.
well, i only have one thing to say. Absolute bull. she got herself into this mess and now she can get herself out of it. She blames Nicky for everything. If she was so unhappy with Nicky, and hated her life with him, why did she stay with him? Shes pathetic. I really am sick of reading about people who lose control of their lives, and then blame it on someone else. Callie says shes moved on, and moved on along time ago, if so why is she still selling her story about her life with Nicky, why doesn't she just forget it? She was so lucky to win that money in the first place! And all she has done is waste it! She says she wished she never won the lottery, but i bet now she still puts on lottery tickets! No-one thinks about Nickys side of the story. Maybe people should listen to him for a change!
I actually have no sympathy for Callie, all my sympathy goes to Nicky, for having to put up with this crap for so long!
By Jessica.. Posted September 1 2009 at 11:55 PM.
"Let he without sin throw the first stone"
We have all made mistakes in life. Doesn't matter how big or small.. it's still sin.
Live and learn from them.
By Carrie.. Posted September 1 2009 at 5:28 PM.
The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom.
Learn, people, learn.
By Wisdom.. Posted September 1 2009 at 3:04 PM.
read Jeremiah 17 [K J V ] then pray that God still will have mercy and forgive your sins, I don't intend to sound pious, but I do know I serve a loving God that promises to love and forgive me if I only ask and then trrust Him. My prayers are with you and they are tat you may find then peace you seek.
Paul
By Paul Smith.. Posted September 1 2009 at 12:27 PM.
This is so sad. Where were your mum and dad, Callie? Where were the adults who should have been able to guide you? Why were you not educated to be aware of the dangers of this increasingly consumeristic society? Now you know, because of your children, that the only lasting joy comes from giving.
Find out what you're good at, study if you can, and teach your children to work hard by setting them an example. Imagine where you'd be now if you'd bought a couple of businesses and paid an accountant to keep track while you learnt the ropes? It's not too late. You're young, and now you know how true "easy come, easy go" is. When you have to work hard for it you treat it with respect.
By Barbara.. Posted September 1 2009 at 6:04 AM.
"If you give a man a fish, you feed him for a day. But if you give him a fishing rod, you feed him for a lifetime..."
What above quote means is that the money came too fast. She didn't EARN them the hard way, therefore she wouldn't know how to MAKE more..Instead she spends, spends, spends, which most people in that age does. Can't blame the immaturity and the lack of knowledge to think "future plans". Instead she was conned by a waster/loser who abused her bank account like it was his. Can't blame her on that as most girls like the bad boys too. She got what she deserved, simple as.
Now with 20k in her bank account she can start from scratch.
I read an 2008 The sun article which stated she wanted to start a car valet business. Or she wanted Nicky to start a business....A fork-lift driver starting a business? There's a reason why he ended up there in the beginning; lack of creativity and any sense to do any sort of business.
These people are stuck at where they're meant to be stuck at. If she had a little bit more brain she would have been on the pill or asked Nicky to use a condom. If she had a little bit more brain she would have done her degree, gotten a further education and THEN started a business/businesses to support her the rest of her life.
1.9 million isn't going to last you a lifetime when you have a couple of mouths to feed unless you're on a super strict budget.
I'm happy to see such an example. An example that people like these just don't know how to spend their money wisely (spending on coke isn't a wise decision; that's a given)
By Henza.. Posted September 1 2009 at 4:44 AM.
Do not blame the money, Nicky or the tooth fairy. YOU LOST YOUR MONEY YOU DUMB COW!! Accept and move on. My regret is that I will have to pay for you and your kids thru my taxes.
By Plato Kavliaris.. Posted September 1 2009 at 2:31 AM.
if you had tried asking Jesus for help he would have helped you. jesus said ''i am the light of the world''.he also said ''i am the way the truth and the life, no man comes to God but through me'' to find the answer to lifes problems, read the Bible and pray to the lord for understanding as you read his word. God bless you.
By christian.. Posted September 1 2009 at 1:19 AM.
By Adam, Australia. Posted August 31 2009 at 7:41 AM.
"Well, quite frankly, I was more sensible at the age of 5 than you were at 16. I was already saving my pocket money then."
Well, quite frankly, this comment appears to have come from someone too detached from Generation Y to truly understand what this is all about...
By Jessica Barker.. Posted September 1 2009 at 1:24 AM.
every thing that happens to you in your life and all your experiences in life make you who you are today i beleive.what you need to do now is to move on in life with your two children and what money you have left and live a happy normal settled family life.totally drug free.the right partner will eventually come along.but dont go looking for one.an this is the most mature sensible way of over coming the life syle you have been living.learn from it and try your best not to make the same mistakes again.thats all you can do.and dont forget we are all only human.any one of us could have won the lottery and gone down the same downhill road as you did.we would be liers if we said any different.keep your chin up and put it behind you.good luck with the rest of your life.
By hayley.. Posted August 31 2009 at 7:53 PM.
After reading your story in the Sun i can say that my heart goes out to you and your family. Having never been involved in drugs myself i cant really say i understand what you went through but having friends who to this very day are involved in drug use i can see the effect it has not only to them but the people around them. Winning the lottery is every ones dream, ive been playing since i was 16 im now 23 and the most ive won is £10 lol. Maybe 16 is too young for that amount of money but you can be safe in the fact that most 16 year old would of done the same as you and spend spend spend. Im glad you've started to put it all behind you and looking to the future with your family. It will be a long road so keep plugging away at life and you'll get there. I truely hope your Mr right doesnt allude you for much longer. Bristol isnt that far btw ;-p. Take care.
By Steve.. Posted August 31 2009 at 3:58 PM.
For most of us the lottery jackpot is something we can only dream about, we've all won the odd tenner or 2 but the big win never seems to come our way. This girl was different to us it's just that she was really to young and immature to handle all that money responsibly and the upshot was that she was used for her money. There are many people out there who only want to know a perso when they have money. With maturity comes experience to spot those people and I feel that her parents should have had control of her money until she was old enough to handle the money responsibly and not fritter it away on useless articles (ex boyfreinds) At least she's admitted she's been a fool and is trying to turn her life around although I'm wondering why her one child has been taken away from her. Best of luck to you girl I hope that you have learnt a very big lesson in life. Money does not always make you happy
By Lorna.. Posted August 31 2009 at 2:38 PM.
I don't 100% blame you. Being a minor, you should have been guided properly by your parent/s and/or family.
There was chance in your lifetime and you blew it. No meaning of regretting, just start over from zero.
By Arif, Melbourne VIC.. Posted August 31 2009 at 10:39 AM.
Hi Callie, if any of the teen in our house won that much money. They too would make poor decisions and want to blow it all on what others judge as stupid things - we call wants not needs. All teens want want want- while most of their immediate needs are met by their parents, shelter, food, warmth, love for most, education, transport etc. So what do teens need money for then? All teen still want money- money = power, power to make a choice in how to spend it. Like me Callie I had a crap childhood and never got a handout ever or much love. Winning that much even for older mature couples, wish they never won it as it has ruined their life - as the vultures come out to prey on them for money not real friendship. You were a kid making adult decisions with that much money. You had poor parental guidance. Many people let you down. And you were impressed by older men who took advantage of you. They gave you attention which is what you seeked, you gave them your money to blow on drugs. Pretty raw deal. Sadly, you learnt a very hard lesson. I just hope that you have sound trusting advice on how to deal with this aftermath and give yourself and your kids the best you can with what you have now. Always look up and ignore the critics who have judged you harshly. We all screw up- learn, move on and do your best now.
By Karla Joss.. Posted August 31 2009 at 10:33 AM.
There really shouldn't be such things as lotteries around. It is just a dream machine that encourages a whole lot of gullible people into believing that one day they might get lots of money for nothing too. This isn't the only sad story I've read about. Many people's lives have been wrecked over winning the lottery. I never subsidise Lotto by buying a ticket. It's all just an illusion. It's all very well for others to say they would have handled it better blah blah, when they haven't been in that situation. I just hope that girl gets it together and takes more responsibility for her life in future. Good luck.
By Megan.. Posted August 31 2009 at 8:19 AM.
Hi Callie,
hopefully you don't read these comments. Most are written by ill-educated folk without much of an insight into your world. What they do is compare the tiny amount of information the press has edited to their own lives and then draw rather large and incorrect conclusions. So already they are foolish, for they don't acknowledge that certainly only a small part of your story is being told. What is more, they don't realise that this is your story, to be told when you wish and as you see fit.
Just look at how many times people write "I" in their comments. It's all about them, so don't take it to heart.
Hopefully you will take this experience pro-actively and what positives you can from it. You mentioned that having a simple life, looking after your kids and perhaps finding a good man to care for you and your children is all you need. That ambition is far more worthy than any amount of money, for you can't buy a childs love, nor that of a good man. Certainly, if you achieve this, then you will find more joy than any amount of sterling will bring. The wonderful thing is that old or young, rich or poor, we all have this chance - and the odds are much better than lotto.
At 16 most people aren't equipped enough to deal with that sort of money. Myself included. Perhaps people in your life could have taken on their roles of role model more seriously, perhaps not. Only you know the truth so others can't justifiably judge it. Time changes everything and hopefully in time this will be but a long ago memory faded from pain as you adventure into a life full of love and happiness.
Good luck to you Callie, all the best.
By Stu.. Posted August 31 2009 at 8:38 AM.
In Australia, the minimum age to buy a lottery ticket is 18, and all top (1st Division) prize winners get a mandatory 2 week "cooling off" period til they can get the money, so they can really give it some thought.
As for Callie, it just seems like it was too much to put her head around, and the vultures got their fill.
By Adam, Australia.. Posted August 31 2009 at 7:41 AM.
Well, quite frankly, I was more sensible at the age of 5 than you were at 16. I was already saving my pocket money then.
By Oh Dear.. Posted August 31 2009 at 6:19 AM.
Hiya Callie, i remember you winning the lottery, i also live in cumbria.
I think things would have been different if you had got the help and love to guide you through when you won the money. you know, paid so much per month etc so you wouldnt get the hangers on etc and take you down a road you wernt meant to go down. You have been vunerable, lonely and loved for the wrong reasons.
Dust yourself down and start again, do something good now for the sake of your kids, you are a gorgeous looking girl make the most of what youve got. Forget about going out with someone new, your not ready and strong. Get yourself a job and your self asteem will come back, move away and start again, best of luck and be strong xx
By linda.. Posted August 30 2009 at 10:32 PM.
Hi Callie I know exactly what you went through with the drug business and messy relationships, Ive had my own dark business to deal with though no lottery winnings :(.
I'm glad that you are turning your life around, some people don't ever recover from these types of things. Life can teach us some harsh lessons the important thing is to never forget those lessons. You are a beautiful girl with your whole life ahead of you, I know you will do fine. Ignore the haters and the nay sayers, til the walk a mile in your shoes they'll never understand. Sincerely Kris from Canada
By Kris.. Posted August 30 2009 at 7:30 PM.
I can't believe the people who are sympathising with this incredibly stupid, young woman. Winning £1m+ is something that most only dream about. She was only 16 therefore here family should have guided her and set limits. How come they still live on the estate they lived before? So she bought cars for her loser guy, but could not buy a decent family home for her family! She also should have invested some of the money on getting an education. At 16 I can only assume she had not finished school up to A Level. She should have gone to a private A Level college and then uni without worrying about fees etc. She could also have done the same for her younger sister, who ended up in the arms of the same loser Callie fell for! Some people never learn!
Its ridiculous for people like Callie and other "celebrities" to blame drugs for their problems - you seek drugs, they dont seek you so if you end up hooked ITS YOUR FAULT! There is noone out there who doesnt know that drugs are bad for you - its been a well known fact since year dot!
By pauline.. Posted August 30 2009 at 6:09 PM.
The best thing you can do now? Make good use of your last 20k, get yourself an education (if you are REALLY EXTREMELY careful you might put yourself through uni with that) and get yourself a good job to support your children...now the cash is gone, its time to think on how to provide for yourself and your children in the future, and not go from rich to the dole...!
By Richard.. Posted August 30 2009 at 5:59 PM.
I'm fed up of coming across stories in the press where young people can't handle money/success/fame. Most of them want it, but those that get it, throw it away and then moan to the tabloids. Youngsters grow up too quickly these days and this is the result. The politically correct mob have a lot to answer to. Time to take your time with your lives, finish your education, and give yourselves a better opportunity in life. The powers that be could also help by raising the gambling limit in Britain to 21, as it's obvious that the majority of those under 21 have no idea when it comes to money and how to handle it properly.
By ClearAsDaylight.. Posted August 30 2009 at 5:51 PM.
As a friend of a friend i have known callie for over 5 years now and i know myself her life has been far from perfect from her life as a child and since winning the lottery. I think people seem to forget she is only human and has got feelings....some of these comments are disgusting from people who dont even know her! Having not experiencing a life anything like Callies i have been fortunate enough that i haven't had to deal with alot of these problems, therefore I cannot comment on how i would have dealt with things. I know she hasnt made the best choices with alot of "so called" friends and family members but the girl only wants to be loved so has been an easy target when it comes to people using her!! She has held her hands up and said she hasnt been perfect, which takes alot considering people judge her and make their own decisions about her to start with. I just hope now she can concentrate on her children as much as she can and gives them the life she would have loved to have had herself. Keep smiling things can only get better for you :o)
By anon.. Posted August 30 2009 at 4:25 PM.
Just one question, do you still play any of the Lottery games, Callie?
-Kev
By Kev.. Posted August 30 2009 at 4:16 PM.
Unfortunatly, too many people have an 'holier than thou attitude' and think that just because people have money, they are immune to the trapfalls of life. Unfortunatly, people tend to comment on things that they have know knowledge of as they have never been in that situation. Money doesnt stop people being taken in and being messed up by others. Good luck with your life and i hope you find what your looking for.
By vaan.. Posted August 30 2009 at 3:58 PM.
Hello Miss Rodgers,
I had never heard of you until I read this article this afternoon,I have on or two thoughts........
1) "...those who still think they have a right to comment (a)bout my life...."
People are actually entitled to comment as you make your story publicaly and there is a 'Your Comment' section at the bottom of the article !
Actually, you comment on their comments using the same facility.
2) If you trully want to know yourself,to honestly know how you feel about all this unearned money at such an early age, ask yourself this question; "Do you still buy lottery tickets ?"
That will give you your answer.
3) Your sister had sex with you boyfriend though she knew what he was like.This is terrible.Do not trust her,even 'on drugs' she had no excuse.
Simple.
Like some other contributors,I was concerned when I read "We haven't even had sex yet..."
I only hope you imagine 'Nof T W' readers might consider this abnormal.This comment shows your parents were.......modern.
You seem determined to do better by your children and deserve every good fortune in this respect.This means giving them a father,they deserve and need one.Good luck to all three of you there.
Finally,depression,it may seem almost insultingly simple but diet can be CRUCIAL. Daily fresh fruit and sunlight.Try it.
By John Richardson.. Posted August 30 2009 at 3:11 PM.
Give the girl a break, she was only16 and it is the most impressionable age and toughesty to cope with, yes she was old enough to win that money but people around her should have guided her more, I can see why people get annoyed but going from rags to riches overnight must be enough to unbalance the most stable of us, never mind a 16 year old
By Elenita.. Posted August 30 2009 at 3:04 PM.
How some people can display such contempt to what was an impressionable and naive young girl beggars belief! Some of the comments made by adults are remarkebly childish. Do you remember being 16 or were you born middle aged? It isn't a huge stretch of the imagination that a child with a fortune will make some brash if not ridiculous decisions. I have a teenage daughter who if won the lotto would want a pink limousine to chauffer her to and from school. It doesn't sound as though Callie had made much of her 'state' education prior to the win and would have led a mere basic existence stacking shelves had she not won. Life is about learning and I get a strong impression Callie has learnt a valuable lesson, which is to be mindful of the company she keeps. From what I gather Callie bought her lottery ticket with her own pound coin so why should her family have administered her wealth? The facts of the matter is that the majority of young people nowadays experiment with drugs, she just had more tokens than most to purchase them with.
By Kevin.. Posted August 30 2009 at 2:58 PM.
Good Luck Callie
Looks like you have realized a lot of home truths , its good better late than never
Plus now with this new attitude and quite pretty face
Wish you the best
By roy.. Posted August 30 2009 at 1:59 PM.
Think quite strongly that everyone of us deserves a secont chance in life. I am not going to advocate on Callies behalf as it will be absolutly not neccessary. But what else could have been expected of a young kid winning such an Astronomical amound of Money on the Loto? Her case is indeed by all means an unusual Story that we only come to see happening into some Holy Wood fandacy Film Productions , and not in reality. Good God i do seriously believe quite strongly, that she deserves every single human compasion, even for her stubidity,or her naivety for that matter.---Let us not to forget that we are all outsiders into this phenomenon Story,and not the insiders , as it is quite easy to critisise her as an outsider. I think it would be a good idea for some of you to read the stories of some adulds that have wan very big Momey in the pools and in the lotto,or in the Casinos many of them have had tragic expereances. For some peculiar Frightening reasons of, you name it- ABC-XYZ.----I do not remember the title of the book that i have read many years ago. But i suggest ,if you are interested into those kind of stories ,a good Librarian might be able to help you out. Therefore i make no secret as to why i am so compasionate with a 16 year old,Callie Rogers true story. Having said all that i think i should now rest my case ,regards to all my Cif Fellows.---------------------------------------------Daniel Salaman London-Nicosia.
By Daniel Salaman.. Posted August 30 2009 at 1:02 PM.
I don't have any sympathy for Callie. It's was not the lottery that ruined your life it was YOU and the wasters you allowed into your in your life -- When you have a big win you have financial advisors there to guide you and you take advantage of their knowledge to point you in the right direction on how to use and invest the money so you live on the interest etc etc also where were her parents who should have insisted it was held in trust until a certain age, but gave her a couple grand -- Any 16 yr old is going to go crazy - She should have had more supervision and guidance and that should have been the parents.
By Angie.. Posted August 30 2009 at 12:38 PM.
to all those who still think they have a right to comment bout my life...i dont jst blame people i no it was my fault doing some of the things i done, but until u are in that situation u shouldnt judge, u have no idea what i went threw with my ex nicky n never will understand how a person like him can mentally mess wih sum1 head the way he did mine. yes iv been stupid n iv learnt from it.im happy n my kids are my world n all i care about now.
By callie.. Posted August 30 2009 at 10:07 AM.
she says she took 3 gram every weekend, how is it possible 2 spend 250,000 then, ur kiddin urself on
By damien666.. Posted August 30 2009 at 11:45 AM.
Dear Georgina Wilkinson,congratulations to both of you ,as your todays interview offers it self as a great example into many ways for our conteporary youngsters to understand and to comprehend the many dangers, behind the speudohapyness that drugs offer, in a world that is flirding with great illness adiction and many times early- death . ------------------------In my hamble opinion your interview its a great success because Callie Rogers was terribly honest ,by going into terrific details into her fortunate and silmalteniously Unfortunate STORY of her personal expereance. May i suggest that you work together to write a book,as i think it might be a great Success , including some very interesting comments coming quite strongly ,from our Cif Fellows.------My respects to both of you .----------------------Your sincerely Daniel Salaman London -Nicosia.
By Daniel Salaman.. Posted August 30 2009 at 12:01 PM.
Trisha you are SO spot on....its all self pity, ooh look at me poor me, they gave me £2m and now i wanna kill myself....its their fault....blaaah blaaah.
And some comments here are saying the ones who are not buying this self-sob-story are jealous...oh yes so jealous we dont have a drug habit, that men dont want to hang out us for our money, that we didnt try to slit our wrists 3 times...yes, green with envy.
By MrsH.. Posted August 30 2009 at 12:08 PM.
What are the chances that the next guy she hooks up with will be the drink and drugs type. Some women never learn.
By Mike Brailsford.. Posted August 30 2009 at 11:24 AM.
it was her own money. if she wants ram coke up her nose thats her business.most people are just JEALOUS.. that its not them, who won the money..one of lifes lessons.Callie now knows is money cant make you happy.best of luck in the future to her...
By james fulton.. Posted August 30 2009 at 11:03 AM.
If i ever was lucky enough to win such an amount like she did on the lottery, i would put it into an account where only so much per month would be paid into my 'every day bank account' per month to cover living expenses and an amount for 'personal spending' so i dont have to worry about those bills and the rest i cant touch until im a about 50 and take retirement and still young enough t enjoy it.
By liz.. Posted August 30 2009 at 10:44 AM.
Callie rocks. Don't listen to negative idiots on here, most of them can't even spell, or string a sentence together.
By Matt.. Posted August 30 2009 at 10:41 AM.
Ive been reading some of your comments on here regarding callie and her big win ! ....we have all taken the wrong paths in life and wish had done things and said things different ....ask yourself how would i have spent this amount of money ? We all do the lottery the legal age to play is 16. what you didnt think someone of that age shouldnt win ?..you fools.
What do you think she doesnt deserve to win ? when its a lottery! .. i think it boils down to a little jelousy ... im not jelous of her i have all i want and more believe me... money doesnt make you happy ! it buys you options ..." Just hope the objects you buy make you happy"
By The Realist... Posted August 30 2009 at 10:28 AM.
Callie, I'm not going to preach to you orncriticise you because now that you have time to breathe,you can see what went wrong. Having a bad start in life,does not mean that pattern will follow you through life.At sixteen,winning that amount of money.you needed someone trust worthy to step in and help you to manage the money wisely.The problems as I see it,was due mainly to those users in the form of men that were in your life.Reading last week how much money was spent on those low life,I really felt for you.You seem to have grown up now enough to be a success in life and bring your children up successfully.Dont dwell on the past and I'd advise give yourself time and you will find the right man to build a relationship with because they are still out there ready to pounce.good luck Callie.
By cindy.. Posted August 30 2009 at 10:17 AM.
The best thing that Callie said ,that she loves her two children ,thats her biggest asset in the world .----I have a great sympathy for her because Callie has been so honest throughout her interview ,most certainly she is now, becoming positive ,in her own ways of sincere mature thinking. The bad news happens to be that she is now left only with 15000 pounds , that would not take her very far ,unless unless she becomes activated and quite energetic enough to fight in her life strongly ,for the sake of her two beloved children . From the bottom of my heard i wish her the best of British luck . After all dear Callie we have all made big mistakes when we were young. Its always much better to make you MISTAKES when you are young ,rather than when you are much older. At least you are still quite young ,and you have your live and future in frond of you,to put all matters in a proper order. Common love , you know you can do it.--------------Daniel Salaman London- Nicosia .
By Daniel Salaman .. Posted August 30 2009 at 9:55 AM.
Perhaps we should introduce a simple IQ test before people are able to buy a lottery ticket, this will atleast ensure "tragic" cases like this dont happen again.
Someone with atleast a moderate IQ would be responsible enough to put something back to society through charity work and youth projects, as well job creation. Someone like me for instance.
In this case making your local drug dealer richer only makes society a poorer place. The money wasted could have done so much good for so many people!
By ben.. Posted August 30 2009 at 9:50 AM.
ANYONE WHO USING DRUGS ...WHY DO YOU FEEL SORRY FOR THEM CALLIE USED THEM GOT WHAT SHE PAYED FOR
By bryan.. Posted August 30 2009 at 9:47 AM.
Yes, you have had an opportunity that most of us can only dream about. Unfortunately YOU made decisions that you now regret.....that's the reality of life. You will be all grown up and mature when you take at least some responsibility for what has happened since you won all the money. However, I don't believe you are off to a good start by saying that you met someone a month ago and "haven't had sex yet." You can't buy common sense but take a step back and think of the example you are setting your two children. Your future is again in your own hands so this time, don't lower your standards and sell yourself cheaply. In a few years time, be able to look back and say "I turned my life around with dignity and respect for myself." Good Luck
By Despairing of your future.. Posted August 30 2009 at 9:42 AM.
I've no sympathy at all. I've had miserable exes and suffered with depression and through it all I've had to work to pay my bills. It's easier to be miserable with money than without it and given that she's been paid for this interview that's just going to top up her coffers more. I was sensible enough to use CONTRACEPTION so I didn't end up with whinging screaming reminders of my exes. with £1.9 million surely she could afford the pill! If she didn't want to go to the doctor she probably could have got black market ones off the dealer who sold her the other drugs. Or the dealer she dated
By Bridget Foley.. Posted August 30 2009 at 9:42 AM.
What a tragic story, I do feel for you, but think of all the charities that would have benefited from all that money. I hope you are feeling better, depression is a terrible disease. They say money doesn't solve your problems in fact it brings them on... Good luck
By Lynne.. Posted August 30 2009 at 8:55 AM.
yes waist of space .yes had it then blew it she will have got payed for this so more luck on her side a simple no to her boyfriends would have been enough then she would have known her true boyfriend he stays with her for her love not her money.sorry but you dont get my sympathy ei.ther
By david.. Posted August 30 2009 at 9:02 AM.
Thank you Callie for telling us about your life and making everyone else feel superior to you even though they have done nothing in their own life.
By Kate.. Posted August 30 2009 at 8:31 AM.
The only people who did well out of all this where drug dealers, ex loser boy friends, spongers and people she bought goods and services from.
When she had money they where at her feet kissing them, now she's at the bottom with nothing they treat her like dirt.
Shows money talks.
On top of all her bad luck and at such a young age she had with kids with one of her loser exes. She's up to her ears in nappys and responsibilities which older mums have and not a 22 year old. She should give the kids back to her loser ex as who wants a permanent living reminder of a loser ?
Hope she sorts her self out and shows those losers that she is better than any of them.
By harry-5.. Posted August 30 2009 at 8:28 AM.
Sorry, but she won't find sympathy here either. Money schmoney, it's the self-pitying, immature, blame the whole world attitude that gets up my nose.
Life is a lottery. You live it, as best you can, rich or poor. Sometimes you don't do so good but always blaming someone or something else isn't the way to get by.
Taking responsibility for your own actions is when you realise you're a grown up.
By Karen.. Posted August 30 2009 at 8:03 AM.
And I quote:
"I did meet someone a month ago but for now we're taking it slowly as I don't want to get hurt.
"We haven't even had sex yet and we're just enjoying getting to know each other. "
A month and they haven't EVEN had sex yet. WOW.
What a world we live in
By Moo.. Posted August 30 2009 at 7:50 AM.
she was lucky enought to win the lottery at her age but i do feel sympathy for her because she ad all that money n it were leaches that done it ie her exes well now the exs ave got to pay for the childs upkeep keep goin to the csa hun musta been hard for ya hun just learn from past experiences n dont do it again ull do it kids mean everythin :)
By vikki.. Posted August 30 2009 at 1:47 AM.
What a load of tosh, take responsibility for your own actions, stop blaming other people - ex boyfriends ect.. you chose the path you took nobody else. How sad you are, you got what most people crave for and you blew it, plain and simple irresponsibility. Best of luck why should you be wished the best of luck, you had it. you had all the luck you could want and you threw it all away. I have no sympathy none what so ever, when you have a big win they supply you with advisors, you should have listened to what they had to say
By Trisha.. Posted August 30 2009 at 1:28 AM.
Absolute garbage - what a waster.Lets all have a whip round for her - poor soul.
By TREVOR.. Posted August 30 2009 at 1:08 AM.
Callie you are such a beautiful girl and you've got a whole life ahead of you to enjoy! You've been stupid with your money and partners. I just hope that you learn from your mistakes and find a good guy who is not interested in you for your money. You rock!
By Ed.. Posted August 30 2009 at 12:57 AM.
It's really not very endearing to moan about how winning the lottery ruined your life when everybody else is in the midst of a recession.
The lottery didn't ruin your life. YOU did. You made those choices now you can live with them.
Get your @ss in gear and start doing something worthwhile with your life.
By Opinionated.. Posted August 30 2009 at 12:56 AM.
Unnecessary comments from people who have no idea what it is like to go from nowt to a millionaire overnight.
The main question we should ask is why the lottery can keep generating stories like this without someone taking more action to help the winners. Callie is not the first - and certainly won't be the last to have problems after winning a fortune.
Let people win by all means - but clearly more support is needed afterwards if it is not going to ruin more lives.
By Chris Morton.. Posted August 30 2009 at 12:51 AM.
STORYS ABOUT PEOPLE BLOWING THERE LOTTO WINS ON DRUGS AND REGRET " EVER WINNING " REALLY P**S ME OFF !! ..
By Lisa Nichols.. Posted August 30 2009 at 12:47 AM.
I DONT BELIEVE A WORD .YOU DESERVE ALL YOU GET .YOU BLAME YOUR BOYFRIENDS FOR EVERYTHING .SURELY THEY ARE NOT ALL BAD AS YOU MAKE OUT .GET A LIFE AND STOP LIEING
By JUDITH.. Posted August 29 2009 at 11:25 PM.
I have absolutely no sympathy for her. She was lucky enough to win the lottery in the first place and was set up for life. She threw it away on useless ex boyfriends and drugs (and has a cheek to complain!) and now has 20k left so goes to the NOTW where you pay her MORE money so she can go do more of the same?!
Does she realise how many people would give anything to win that kind of money? I hope she gets no more money offered to give any interviews - she doesnt deserve it!
By aidan burns.. Posted August 29 2009 at 11:01 PM.
It's not completely surprising... if her family live on a council estate they probably don't have savings so high they need financial management - so they would have been just as unaware as Callie on how she should look after her winnings.
It seems her relationship with men is more of a problem that her relationship with the money.
She seems to have a little left over, hopefully she's learnt enough so she can use what's left to get back on her feet.
Best of luck to you Callie. Don't listen to negative people, they have no idea what they would be like if they'd have been 16 and won that much money.
By Fiona.. Posted August 29 2009 at 10:34 PM.