Jade Goody: I've lived in front of the cameras.. maybe I'll die in front of them too

'JACK'S BEEN BRILLIANT': Jade and fiance leaving hospital last month

Jade's only interview

By Carole Malone, 15/02/2009

THERE are two Bibles by her bed. One is called the Living Bible. The other, an altogether more cheery version, is called The Good News Bible.

But no matter how much she wants it, no matter how much she's praying for it, there is no good news for Jade. And now, there's not likely to be.

The drugs and the painkillers that are constantly being pumped into her body make it impossible for her to concentrate for long. But still she's desperately trying to read her Bible, to make sense of it.

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Suddenly she asks: "Carole, do you think there's a heaven and a hell?"

I don't know what to say because if there IS a God and a heaven, then this young woman-who is whiter than the sheets draped over her emaciated body, and who's just been told she's being sent home to die-could be forgiven for thinking that God has abandoned her.

I need to need to keep saying it to convince myself there are wonderful things to come

She can't understand what she did to deserve being plunged into this terrifying hell-where all that waits for her is death, where her mind is so befuddled by drugs and fear she doesn't know what time it is, let alone what day it is, and where the only question now is: "When?"

It's just three weeks since Jade and I last met. Back then, on that cold, sunny day in London, she still had hope. Back then there was light in her eyes and fight in her belly. Back then she still held the unshakeable belief that this cancer was never going to beat her.

She was going to kick its ass-which is why, in between the tears and the spasms of fear that literally grabbed her body and shook it, we laughed a lot.

We talked about the kind of make-up she should wear with her new "boiled-egg" head, we talked about the clothes she wanted to buy to make her look pretty.

But cancer makes fools of us all. Because as we laughed and made plans, as she talked about her beloved boys and what fun places she was going to take them to, it was already creeping its way into her liver, her bowel and her groin-making a grotesque nonsense of her optimism.

Today there's no talk of make-up or dresses. She's lying in bed in a tiny white-walled private room in London's Marsden Hospital. She has a line into her neck, and she has clumps of wires sticking out of her body.

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The overpowering perfume of a dozen bouquets fills the warm, groggy air, and Jade is lying there surrounded by photographs of the people she loves.

"You know this Bible?" she says. "There's a little section here which is called Promise of Hope. And it's so lovely. Listen, I'll read it to you."

She holds the book in her white, shaky hands-and, in a faltering voice, says: "Call to me and I will answer you. I will tell you wonderful marvellous things that you know nothing about."

She looks up. "Jack, my friends, even Jack's dad, are all going to have that tattooed on to the arches of their feet, so that there's hope all around me and they can bring it with them when they come to see me.

"I don't know why those words mean so much to me-why they move me. But they do. And I need to keep saying them if only to convince myself there ARE wonderful things to come."

As we talk, the door opens and a nurse comes in carrying yet another bouquet of flowers. Jade's face lights up when she sees they're from Jack.

Previously unseen footage of Jade Goody talking about her cancer battle

The card says: "To my beautiful girl-lots of love, Jack."

Jade smiles. "If only I WAS beautiful. But look at me . . . " Again, her voice trails away.

Last time I saw Jade she DID look beautiful. Radiant even. She was wearing an emerald-green mini-dress, and she was getting ready to take off her scarf and show me how she looked without her hair.

DEVOTED: Jade with Bobby

And when she'd done it she was happy, because it was one less burden to carry, one less thing to hide.

Today she must wish that's all she had to hide. Because today Jade is really sick. In just three weeks this cancer has taken hold of her, made it clear who's boss. And it's not just taken over her body, it's taken her soul as well. The girl I spoke to three weeks ago has long gone. This one doesn't even look like Jade any more.

And I know it's NOT her because the fight has gone out of her.

She's lying in bed in a blue-and-white standard hospital gown. She's skinny but her stomach has swelled to twice its normal size because of her operation last week, because of the drugs-and because she's so desperately ill.

It's hard to look at someone this sick and be cheerful but everyone has to try- because SHE'S trying. And if she's using what little strength she has to try, then there's no excuse for everyone around her not to try a damn-sight harder.

You know Jack's been brilliant with all this. He's only young but he's handling it better than I ever dreamt he could

She says: "You know Jack's been brilliant with all this. He's only young but he's handling it better than I ever dreamt he could.

"No boyfriend should ever have to do what Jack's doing for me-but he is. He helps me put on my knickers every day. He helps me carry my wee-bag, which comes everywhere with me. He brushes my teeth for me because I just don't have the strength to.

"He's bought me loads of lovely toiletries and new pyjamas. And when I was having my operation last week he knew he couldn't be there when I woke up (because of the conditions of his release from prison), so he rushed up to my room and decorated it with loads of lovely photos and pictures.

"He put lots of bits and pieces from home around my bed so that when I woke up it would feel like home."

It's incredible that this girl-who has been adored and reviled in equal measure by millions of people who know as much about her as they do about their own kids-can even now get excited in the same way a child does by simple things.

Maybe that's what being close to death does-makes you appreciate the little things more.

But Jade Goody is doing her damnedest to get pleasure out of whatever life she may have left.

"Jack bought me a DVD player, and the other night he lay with me on the bed and we watched a movie called Anchor Man," she says.

"It was lovely. He just kept kissing and cuddling and squeezing me and telling me I was going to be OK. It was like I was having a lovely dream, and I didn't want to wake up."

When Jade isn't zonked out by the drugs or feeling sick, she knows she has to use what lucid time she has sensibly-which is why in the last few days she has been talking to lawyers and getting ready to write her final will.

She's been putting it off since she was diagnosed last September but now she knows she can't put anything of any more.

And so in between trying to keep her eyes open and just staying alive, she's trying to work out what should happen to her kids when she dies and how she's going to prepare them for that.

Because the countdown to the end has already begun.

Until now Jade has tried to shield four-year-old Freddie and Bobby, five- her children from her previous relationship with TV presenter Jeff Brazier-from her illness.

She's joked with them about her baldy head and her funny scarves. And she's played games with their friends- whipping off her scarf and making funny faces to make them all laugh.

And all that was fine when she believed there was a 40 per cent chance of a cure. Then, she could tell herself that everything was going to be all right and this was just something she had to go through.

Now she knows she isn't going to get through it. People don't talk to her about a cure any more they talk about 'how long?' But not her boys. All they want to know is why Mummy isn't home, why she isn't there to kiss and cuddle them, why she can't tuck them up in bed at night, and why she hasn't been in their lives much these last few weeks.

I'd been desperately trying to find the words to tell them what is happening to me

"They came in to see me on Friday, and I'd been desperately trying to find the words to tell them what is happening to me-but I just didn't know how," she says in a voice this cancer has reduced to a whisper.

"So in the end I just told them my tadpoles (the cancer) had had babies and they were swimming around inside me and they have made Mummy much sicker than she was.

"I don't know if they understand but I want to prepare them for the fact I'm going to get worse, and I don't want the way I look to frighten them.

"I explained to them that I am coming home next week with a nurse but that they will be spending more time with their dad and I hoped that was OK. I will spend half-term with them but I don't know how I'll be.

"The truth is they don't really understand what's happening to me, which is good-I think.

"They are much more interested in the fact I'm getting married, and they kept tearing around the room shouting, 'Jack's getting married, Jack's getting married!'

"But it's better that they spend time focusing on something that's going to be happy than something that isn't. I don't want them to spend time thinking about what's wrong with me. It's too scary for them." So will she ever tell them she's going to die?

"No, I will never say those words to them," she says adamantly.

"What's the point? They don't know what death means and it will frighten them, and by the time it happens they'll have gotten used to spending more time with their dad. But I did tell them I was going to have them christened, and Bobby just laughed and said: "Does that mean we're getting religion then?"

And then he thought about it for a while and said quietly: "Heaven isn't a good place, is it, Mummy?"

I don't want my sons to spend time thinking about it. It's too scary for them

"I didn't think I was going to be able to hold it together then, but I explained it IS a very good place.

"Maybe he sensed something but I didn't want to take it any farther with him . . . " her voice tails off and she cries again.

" But we did have a great day," she continues-the light flooding back in her eyes. "It had been a week since I'd seen them-since my bowel op-and even though I was in a lot of pain I was so excited." And she has every right to be excited, because her boys are what she's fighting to stay alive for.

"The cooks here had prepared special picnic food for us all, and the boys brought it all into the room. It was fantastic."

It's a small thing but it means so much to this young woman who just a few months ago had the world at her feet. Her career was finally back on track after the Big Brother race row. She was back with Jack even though he was in prison for hitting someone with a golf club.

She was earning money again. Life was good-until the bombshell struck. Since then it has been one round of gruelling chemotherapy treatment after another, one kick in the guts after another. And when there was hope of a cure, Jade could just about cope. Now she's struggling. Now that every day brings with it more pain, more bad news, the hope is literally being sucked out of her.

As I listen to her I feel ashamed and just a little bit dirty-like I'm stealing time from this girl who has so little of it left. So I tell her.

I get a typical Jade response. "Carole, I've lived my whole adult life talking about my life. The only difference is that I'm talking about my death now. It's OK.

At this point I really don't care what other people think. Now, it's about what I want

"I've lived in front of the cameras. And maybe I'll die in front of them. And I know some people don't like what I'm doing but at this point I really don't care what other people think. Now, it's about what I want."

I tell her that her story has prompted dozens, hundreds, maybe even thousands of women to go and get checked for cervical cancer-me included. She smiles: "That's good."

"That's really good."

I ask if the TV cameras are still following her, still filming everything that's happening to her, and she says: "I can't have them here at the moment because I don't want people to see me like this and I don't have the strength to talk to anyone.

"The only people I want near me are the boys, Jack and my mum and my friends."

I tell her that she must know there is a huge wave of love coming at her from the outside. "Is there?" she says, a smile fleeting across her pale face. "Is there really?

"Tell them 'Thank You'."

And again the fog of drugs and sleep and exhaustion envelops her, taking her to a place where there is no fear, no pain. Just peace.

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Jade you were very courageous, you will never be forgotten.

Your boys will grow up to be very proud of you.

Our thoughts are with Jack, the boys and your family.

By Delwyn.. Posted April 1 2009 at 10:19 AM.

may you rest in peace free from pain god blessyou jade

By mary.. Posted March 22 2009 at 12:46 PM.

I just hope that Jade knows how many people, young and old are admiring her right now. She is a wonderful person and I seriously hope her pain can be controlled. Jade has provided for her sons which is a great thing for her to do.
Enjoy your last days sweetheart...
Chrissy x

By Chrissy Jones.. Posted March 13 2009 at 9:48 AM.

Jade,

The Lord our creator and author of life once said "for i know the plans i have in you". Such a wonderful assurance from Him that would keep our hope alive and strong.
Its such a wonderful thing that the mysteries of this world that has been a subject of all manking for million years will be revealed to you. Most of all, the joy of facing our ever loving creator who guides and protect us will be upon you and He promised us to "wipe away every tears in our eyes" on the day we meet Him. Is'nt it so comforting?

Fear not, God is with you.

By Richard.. Posted March 12 2009 at 11:32 PM.

dear jade
you are the best women i have known in my whole life :-) i wish you well :-) x

By zoe love.. Posted March 12 2009 at 11:02 PM.

jade we think you are really inspiring and hope that there is a chance you can fight back.jack and your boys will be proud of you and when they grow up they will always remember you as there mum who refused to let go and the person in there lives that loved them more than anything.god bless you! love liziy nd jade

By jade price and ;liziy harris.. Posted March 5 2009 at 10:22 AM.

hi jade,
i have never written before to a newspaper or anything. jade, i think of you all the time x i cant believe him up there is taking you but do you know he is taking you for a reason. its because he wants you, he put you here to show the world that he can take the best. you were sent here for a reason now he wants you back. your sons are absolutely gorgeous and he wanted you to have them before he took you back. your sons will NEVER forget you, no one will let them xxxxxxxxx you just shine your star xxxxxxxxxxx caroline xxxxxxxxxx

By caroline.. Posted March 1 2009 at 2:11 AM.

God is waiting with open arms, To welcome you into he's world. To hold you and to cuddle you and make you smile, upon the ones that you Love.

Jade God Bless You x x x

By Julie.. Posted February 24 2009 at 3:38 PM.

To Jade, I am a filipina and living in Japan, I just read about your condition and, I thought you are a fighter.I had this kind of saying that i want to share it with you.....
TO WHOM THE LORD CHOSES TO BE THE GREATEST, HE, ALWAYS TEST THE HARDEST!
God bless you Jade and your children...You will be in my prayers .

By Ana Joyce.. Posted February 23 2009 at 5:41 PM.

Jade hope u had a fantastic wedding day with your Jack as you so deserve it! you are such a huge inspiration to all us women. May god keep you pain free throughout your illness. You are such a yummy mummy! And your two boys are the sweetest, cutiest two boys just like their mum!
God Bless and protect u Jade now and forever
Love Aine .xxxx

By Aine long.. Posted February 22 2009 at 8:07 PM.

i think of you jade and pray for you and your family i would like you to read this it may give you comfort my mother was a christian and she kept this little passage with her always when i feel afraid think i have lost my way still your right beside me and nothing can i fear just as long as you are near please be with me to the end may the lord be with you jade and remember he is always with you lots of hugs from mexx

By kirsteen.. Posted February 22 2009 at 3:35 PM.

jade you are such a brave woman if jack wants that tattooed on his foot including your friends and jacks dad then we will do it for them for free. we recently did a portrait of you on one of your fans back i do hope you like it he had it done as a tribute to you
god bless you and your family
keep the fight up

By lisa.. Posted February 21 2009 at 10:02 PM.

I'm barely two years younger than Jade and I just cannot begin to imagine the hell she is going through. I just hope her husband to be and Jeff remain amicable and do what's right by Jade's two young children.

A diamond in the rough who has had more ups and downs than my beloved Leeds United, I was a little unsure of her decision to be so public about her illness, at first. But then I reflected and thought well it'd be hypocritical to do otherwise having made her name on TV. I hope the money will be used wisely and that the kids will grow up knowing and learning that their Mum helped alot of people contemplate their lives and face up to their own fears about cancer, death and re-evaluate in some small way, their priorities.

Life is so VERY precious. Do what you can. Don't be a stranger. Don't put things off. Just go for it. You may never get another chance.

By Orangina.. Posted February 20 2009 at 11:32 PM.

Jade,

Your story not only goes thru your country but all the way over here in my little country of NZ, it is sooo sad that you have to go thru this!

Wish we could change the way things have happened

By Ashleigh.. Posted February 20 2009 at 4:40 AM.

Jade, you're truly a remarkable woman and your sons will forever be proud of their amazing Mum. Best, Nazli x

By Nazli.. Posted February 19 2009 at 12:07 PM.

Dear Jade, What a courageous young lady you are. A wonderful person and a brilliant mother. You have two lovely boys who are so proud of their Mum. I have followed your story right from your entry into the BB house, all you ups and downs, highs and lows. I am a Mum myself and my daughter and I are so sad that you and your loved ones are having to endure all this heartache. We cannot begin to imagine how you are feeling. Jade our thoughts are with you, Jack, Bobby and Freddie.

Wishing you all our love,
Shirley and Zoe. xxxx

By Shirley.. Posted February 17 2009 at 6:36 PM.

Jade you are such a strong person to be going throught all this and planing the rest of your time left wiht your boys Jack adn the wedding. my Heart goes out to you. Your boys will never forget you Jade . God bless you x Love Lucy and Tara xxxxx

By Tara And Lucy.. Posted February 17 2009 at 6:15 PM.

Dearest Jade, you are such a wonderful person with a heart of gold, being in the limelight never changed you. Your attitude to other people, your kindness and outlook in life is amazing you are a credit to your two lovely sons Bobby and Freddy they are going to grow up to be so proud of you. We have been with you, watching what you have had to endure the last few months on TV, you have got so much inner strength and courage. But the news you have just received is so unfair to such a beautiful girl, may Jack and youself have a lovely, joyous and memorable wedding day, may the angels, friends and family up above take care of you on your special day and peace be with you to see you through. Our hearts are breaking but our prayers are with you and your lovely boys. Big hugs, kisses, love, light and gods blessings. Christine, Mark, Charlie and Christopher xoxoxoxox

By Christine, Mark and boys.. Posted February 17 2009 at 4:22 PM.

Jade I am the same age as you and just had a son who I adore. I have made an appointment to go and get checked out. I think you should be so proud of the fact you will probably save thousands of womens lives. You probably don't realise it but you battle with cancer has made every mother re-think their health and lifestyles and appreciate every day with their kids.

I send all my love xxx Carly 27 years and Marley (17 weeks)

By Carly McKnight.. Posted February 17 2009 at 8:18 AM.

jade goody i have always admired you since u became famous in 2002 and my heart aches everytime i think of this dredful disease that iskilling you and takeing you away from your beautiful boys.

I ahev suuffered with severe depression and anxiety for the past three year and i thought my life was over so many things about it i have had to change and come to terms with but atleast i can learn to live with this, i am sooo sorry that this illness will take you away and i will always spare a thought for you when i feel like my life is hard because it is nothing compared to what you are haveing to face,i will pray for you and your little boys everynight and when i kiss my two beautiful children goodnight i will ask the angels to guard yours as i ask them to guard mine everynight. I hope you het the love and happiness and hopefully fulfill your dreams in your final days and have a wonderful wedding. You are nt selfish in what u r doing to make money for your children i would sell my sole to the devil if it meant my children would always be financially stable and loved and your love will live on in them as from what we have seen on cameras you truley are a wonderful mum.

love prayers and thoughts

Danielle Carrollxxxxxxxxxx

By danielle carroll.. Posted February 16 2009 at 11:18 PM.

I put my son to bed tonight and cried thinking about the fear and pain you must be going through, the mere thought of not seeing your beautiful sons growing up, not tucking them in at night. It breaks my heart. I hope you can find the strength to enjoy every last second of life with the boys and find a place of peace. I am praying for you and your family. Sincere warmest thoughts of you. Lisa

By Lisa Helou.. Posted February 16 2009 at 10:16 PM.

Jade,

I haven't been able to stop thinking about you in the last few weeks, and I have never even met you. What you are going through is so awful there are no words...if there was any justice in this world young mums would be immune to death!
I think you are an extraordinary woman with great courage and strength. God Bless you.

By Mia.. Posted February 16 2009 at 9:30 PM.

I admire you so much. You are a real inspiration. Look to the future and be an inspiration to your children. They already have had a better childhood than you ever had and will always remember you. I have a friend who is a survivor of cervival cancer and whilst there is no cure for you - you too are a survivor. Go live life to the full and well done for continuing to share your life with the public you have already made a difference and will continue to do so. God Bless "our peoples princess mark II"

By sara.. Posted February 16 2009 at 6:57 PM.

Jade, the lord bless you, please keep reading those bibles by your bed and God will give you peace and rest. Jesus said come to me all you have heavy burdens and I will give you rest. I pray that God with show himself to you and take away your fear - he will look after your boy. May God welcome you into his kingdom.
With love and God's blessing

By Maria .. Posted February 16 2009 at 4:39 PM.

Jade, please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family every second of every day. You should be so proud of who you are, you have achieved so much in such a short lifetime and you are a fantastic mummy to the boys. You should be commended for the way in which you've handled this tragic situation and please don't fear that your kids will ever forget you because your family and friends as well as the great british public will help to keep your memory alive. Good Luck and Best Wishes to you and Jack on your wedding day may it be everything you've ever dreamed of. I'll keep praying for you and your family every night for the hope of a miracle. God Bless you Jade xxx

By Debbie.. Posted February 16 2009 at 4:23 PM.

Dear Jade, I just felt that I had to write and let you know that you have truly touched me with your amazing courage, dignity, honesty and overwhelming love for those two beautiful Boys. They are extremely blessed to have you as their Mum. As a Mum of two Kids myself I cannot begin to imagine what you are feeling but please know that I along with so many other people you have never even met are just thinking about you and sending you so much love and good wishes because you are truly an inspiration. God bless you Sweetheart and your Family. Much Love from Traceyx

By Tracey.. Posted February 16 2009 at 3:51 PM.

Jade, I'm so sad that it has ended this way for you.
Your boys will NEVER forget you. Enjoy every moment you have left with all those who love and care for you. Remember your last days with as much happiness as possible. I can't imagine what you are going through but I am sending all my love to you although you don't know who I am. We can only pray that God is true and that there is a meaning to all this. God bless.xxxxxxxx

By Kerry.. Posted February 16 2009 at 3:10 PM.

Dear Jade may God bless you and give you peace my heart goes out to you and family you are in my thoughts take care Jade XXXX

By sandra.. Posted February 16 2009 at 2:58 PM.

Dear Jade I'm writing from australia I want u to know god is with u he loves u and will never leave u please call on him and he will give u the strength u need and courage to face ur trial..ur beautifull boys will be fine knowing that u are in a better place waiting for them don't be afraid jade the lord walks with u love and blessings my friend roxanne in sydney

By roxanne.. Posted February 16 2009 at 1:33 PM.

God bless you and your family!

My prays and thoughts are with you all.

Please dont ever feel alone, the country stands beside you holding the light to guide you!

xxxxxx

By belen romasanta.. Posted February 16 2009 at 1:13 PM.

god bless you jade and your boys..you have been constantly on my mind for the last few weeks,i hope you have a lovely wedding day and keep fighting till the very end,you are a inspiration to all human beings.XXXXX

By victoria .. Posted February 16 2009 at 1:10 PM.

Jade, you are a star through and through, and have achieved so much in the last few years.

DON'T let anyone try to put/drag you down, you have more courage and love in you, than so many others do.

You HAVE succeeded at being a 'mega' mum to your 2 gorgeous boys, who will always carry your love and memories in their hearts and lives. I admire you Jade, and always have.

I hope your's and Jack's wedding is all you dream of and more.

I pray that you stay as comfortable as possible, in your mind and body; and when the time comes that you leave peaceful in the knowledge that you HAVE made a difference to this world.

God bless you Jade.

With love & respect Jackie xxxxxxxxxx

By Jackie.. Posted February 16 2009 at 12:44 PM.

Jade
I have never really understood the whole reality celeb culture that you have been caught up in but your illness has made me realise that behind the flashing lights and the camera lenses exist human beings who are touched by life and its challanges and heartbreaks. I am Mum to a beautiful 4 year old and having had a cancer diagnosis myself when I was pregnant with him I may understand a little of what you must be feeling about leaving your precious boys behind. I admire your courage and your dedication to them. I wish I had words to make it less painful for you but I dont so Ill just say God bless you and your little ones always. They WILL never forget you because you will live on in them and will always have a special place their hearts because you and ONLY you are their MUM. I am sure that you have inspired them enough to go on and become all you hope for them and more.
Its too soon for you to go and it seems so unfair - I hope your wedding day is filled with the love and happiness you deserve. Take care x

By Sharon.. Posted February 16 2009 at 11:40 AM.

cant possibly imagine what u r going through, the emotion i feel reading your story is bad enough as i have two small sons. your story certainly puts life in perspective and i feel ashamed for worrying about the superficial things in life that quite frankly dont matter. you r an inspiration for someone so young and its not fair this nightmare is happening to you. be at peace and stay by your boys forever, this is not the end. x

By emma.. Posted February 16 2009 at 11:35 AM.

'keep fighting jade everyone is so proud of you and how you are coping you will be a queen on your wedding day.and an angiel for eternity your boys and everyone that love you will never forget that GOD BLESS YOU JADE LOVE KELLY AND FAMILY XXX

By kelly.. Posted February 16 2009 at 11:25 AM.

Jade
I don't really know what to say. I am so sad that cancer has picked you and that you no longer can fight it. I really thought you would. I truely admire your spirit and make sure that you come back and tell me what heaven is like as I know that's where you are going. We all love you.
The miller family.
Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By Sooz miller.. Posted February 16 2009 at 11:02 AM.

What a woman you are, not only are you living with this awful disease you are now planning your wedding! You are an inspiration to us all. I have two children your boys age and honestly don't know if I would be as brave as you appear to be. I lost my dad in one week to cancer it was unbeleivable but my only advise to you would be try to think ofdifferent situations that your boys will come across and tell them what you would do because I ask my dad this all the time and would love to hear his response. God bless you Jade and have a fantastic wedding day.

By Emma Atterbury.. Posted February 16 2009 at 9:50 AM.

You have always been an inspiration to me and you will continue to be so... I look forward to seeing your boys in the spotlight, reminding us of their incredibly lucky, trusting, innocent, optimistic and gorgeous Mum... I hate that your luck is running out... Thank you for letting us all be part of your world, you've been a real escape from reality :)

Lots of love

God Bless

Emma Docker x

By Emma Docker.. Posted February 16 2009 at 9:04 AM.

I am so saddened by your situation. Being a Mum with young children myself...I dont know if I could be as brave as you are. All I can say is trust in the Lord Jade with all your heart there is a promise of Hope and if you ask he will listen..He will make sure that your boys are well looked after do not worry..
You are an inspiration to many people your courage bravery and devotion to your children is overwhelming.. God Bless you on your journey to Peace... Love Nicky x

By nicky rome.. Posted February 16 2009 at 8:18 AM.

Dear Jade, there has always been something wonderfully innocent about you which is why so many people love and care for you. I think the public`s relationship with you is like the one we have with our own children.When they`ve done something silly we shake our heads and tut but a split second later we want to cuddle them and tell them its ok, that we still love them, and always will, when they achieve something in their life`s we`re proud of them and want to tell them how amazing they are,when they are sick we want to wrap them up and take away their pain if only for a while. I think that`s why so many people feel like i do and want to tell you we`ve always loved you and always will, we are proud of the things you`ve achieved in your life, and more then anything we wish we could take away your pain, if only for a while. To many amazing people are taken away from us in this life and this world would be a much happier place if personalities like yours ruled the planet. God bless you Jade and your beautiful boys. Ali x

By Ali.. Posted February 16 2009 at 5:52 AM.

Dear Jade,

I just want you to know that you are not alone in your journey. You have many adoring fans sending you their love and admiration (myself included) & you have the company of people going through the same experience as you.

My friend Fiona was diagnosed with terminal cancer in December, following a 6 year battle which started with a tumour in her leg. Like you, she has chosen to return home to die. She's only 33.

It is distressing to watch her fade away & part of me just now wants her pain to be over. She still has her spirit though, and her often wicked sense of humour.

Unlike you, the chemo robbed her of having children, which she now says is probably just as well since she wouldn't have been here to see them grow up. It must be hard to know that you have to leave your kids behind but I'm sure you are so grateful to have known them and will always be with them.

Continue to live, Jade, even though you are dying. Your life doesn't stop with the terminal diagnosis. Besides, you have a wedding to plan!

Don't ask yourself what you did wrong that this happened to you. It's nothing you did. It's simply that your work in this life is done. Whatever you were put here to do, you did it. You flourished, you created two little lives, you nurtured those lives, you entertained and you opened all of our hearts.

I wish you well in the coming weeks, Jade. Your bravery and honesty is an inspiration to us all.

Love & hugs,
Caroline

By Caroline.. Posted February 16 2009 at 3:45 AM.

My daughter and I send our heartfelt love to you and your boys and jack!!Your in our prayers sweetheart!!with love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By debbie.. Posted February 16 2009 at 3:10 AM.

Hi Jade,

May the blessing of God be with you and the boys. I pray that God will give you a peacful and safe journey into your next chapter in life. We all came here for a reason and you have done your own share of your life activties. I am delighted that you are planning to leave everything for your boys, please don't be fooled with the wedding plans, cakes, flowers and all that stuff. your boys comes first, Jack will find another woman when once you have gone but the boys will never have another mum who is so caring and loving like you, you have done a fantastic job with those two fine boys. Once again I wish you a pleasant journey, enjoy every minute of your life and remember don't wait to die enjoy yourself, play the best music, laugh a lot and do less crying. I ask that your angel will help you through your journey.

Love & Light

Muriel from Roehampton

By Muriel Nylander.. Posted February 16 2009 at 2:33 AM.

Jade, i have followed your career since you first arrived in the BB house, and i have laughed and cried with you and at you ever since. But one thing has always stood out....and that is what an amazing mother you have been to your 2 boys. All i can say is that i am sure that your boys will not forget you as we also will not forget. Love & Hugs to you and your boys xxx God bless.

By Debs.. Posted February 16 2009 at 1:33 AM.

Dearest Jade, God bless you, you are an ispiration to all, you clearly haven't had an easy life and you certainly don't deserve this, make the most of the time you have left, love and embrace everyone you care about, spend as much time as you can with your beautiful boys, don't ever think they will forget you, they will always love and cherish you in their hearts and through the wonderful things you have taught them, you will always be watching over them and guiding them through life, you will be the most beautiful angel in gods garden and the brightest star shining in the sky,tell your boys to blow that star a goodnight kiss everynight before they go to bed and say goodnight and love you to their mummy xx You will be in my thoughts, stay strong, enjoy your wedding day, with lots of love to you, your boys, family and those close to your heart xxxxxxxxx

By Carol.. Posted February 16 2009 at 1:29 AM.

Jade
I have never sent anyone any messages on the internet,but i feel like i need to leave you one,you are so brave it's not fair on you or your two gorgeous boys,they will never forget you the are the double of you,when they look in the mirror they will see you straight away,and that will remind them of you.There will be so many women now that will go for the smear tests all thanks to you,i know its not fair on you, but there will be so many lives saved because of you. xx

By Sharon.. Posted February 16 2009 at 1:26 AM.

jade...
i hope you know how much people love you and are praying for you right now.
Being a young woman from essex myself i immediately warmed to you on your fist appearance on BB and since then have followed your life over the years and was devastated to hear what your going through.
Its weird....i feel as if i know you even though we have never met and i think this is the same for alot of people.
I love your honesty jade...u never fail to make me laugh and i love the fact that you are a birlliant mother to your beautiful boys and they will never forget you.
you have had quite an impact on my life jade and i wish id had gotten the chance to meet u. hopefully one day.
enjoy your wedding day...i hope its all you ever dreamed for u deserve it. RIP x

By anon.. Posted February 16 2009 at 1:26 AM.

i am a mother too with a young son .... and i just cant imagine wot it would be like to be told the devasting news that u were told... my heart aches for u and ure boys... but u have great dignity jade and u should be very proud of wot u have achieved thruout ure life ... and ure boys will also be proud of their mummy ..they will never ever forget u never... god bless u jade .. a true heroine ...... xxx

By jane.. Posted February 16 2009 at 1:04 AM.

Dear Jade, what an inspiration you are. I have so much compassion for you and so does everyone I have spoken to. You will live on in your boys hearts forever, they will never forget what a wonderful mother you are.

I am praying for you, that you have peace, joy and comfort for the rest of your life.

God Bless you and your children.

With love from Erica x

By Erica.. Posted February 16 2009 at 12:58 AM.

jade you are a very special lady . what you have said will help people going through the same sad time as you . have a wonderful wedding day .god bless you and your family .xx

By Donna.. Posted February 16 2009 at 12:56 AM.

Jade I cant find the words to explain how close so many people feel to you. You have always been yourself with no airs and graces. What you see is what you get. It is such a shame that it has taken this awful sadness for you and your family for the many thousands of people to say how much you have touched us all. In the beginning people may have laughed at you when you were on big brother but then we laugh and cry with you. We are all holding your hand right now and if only we could all give you a day from our lives to give you longer with your gorgeous boys I think we would give willingly. You may not feel you have enough time to show them everything and be there to watch and share their happiness and sadness. I can promise you that you have left your impression not just on them but many many people who feel they are sharing your sorrow and pain. I am not a strong believer but I do think we are only given a burden big enough that we can carry. The bigger the burden the stronger the person.
For now you need to embrace the love you have shown people and take comfort from the fact that you have touched and changed many peoples lives. You will always be in our thoughts and you are an inspiration to all. Keep you head held high and be proud of how you lived your life and how wonderfully you have brought up Bobbie and Freddy. Enjoy your wedding day with Jack just wish could see you together when you say I do. Will be thinking of you all. All my love Shazzy x

By sharon birmingham.. Posted February 16 2009 at 12:55 AM.

Jade,
You are amasing and have a spirit that shines above most. What you have achieved is something great and you have touched many from the beginning you appeared on TV. Your boys will have you with them always and am sure they will shine as bright as their mum. God bless you. You are a saint xxxxx

By Lisa Towers.. Posted February 16 2009 at 12:49 AM.

fight till the end, the best legacy you can leave is to never give up, your boys will grow strong seeing what you have done. You are a part of everyone and always will be, as everyone will feel a part of you. You will make a true gaurdian angel. Always keep that smile.Love to all your family

By gem.. Posted February 16 2009 at 12:18 AM.

Jade, you are such a lovely young lady and a wonderful mother to Bobby and Jackm you don;t deserve to go through what you are without so much as complaining. You will always have a special place in our hearts, enjoy every day with your family and you will be a beautiful bride - the world has been a richer and luckier place having you around. God bless you, love Pauline xxx

By Pauline.. Posted February 16 2009 at 12:17 AM.

jade i cryed when i read your story your such a lovely girl and always been a big fan of yours. hope you have the wedding you have always dream about .have a wonderfull wedding day.your boys will always remeber you and love you. god bless you .love kim xx

By kim hook.. Posted February 16 2009 at 12:17 AM.

Jade you have been on my mind constantly and i wouldn't wish my worse enemy to go through what you are going through i've always liked you and admired your achievements, i hope your prayers are answered and they find a cure don't blame yourself for your illness, time is precious and valuable have a wonderfull wedding, God bless you and your beautiful boys

By Theresa.. Posted February 15 2009 at 11:55 PM.

Jade.. You are Amazing.. Beautiful.. and you inspire me more than anyone ever has done before..
you are braver than anyone i know to carry on being your vibrant cheerful self through all the pain you have had to go through.. cancer is undescribable it always seems to take away the peopple who least deserve it.. my grandad died of bowel cancer and he will never be forgotten just like your boys will never forget you..
Jade Goody you are an absolute LEGEND in my opinion..
and i send you much love
Jade Goody you are my IDOL
xxxxx Hollie xxx

By Hollie.. Posted February 15 2009 at 11:45 PM.

Jade, I am so shocked at what is happening to you. I too have been treated at The Marsden and I feel a small connection to you. I too have small children and it makes me feel sick just to think about how you must be feeling. I hope you can take some small comfort in knowing that your story is touching millions of people, and that all of them, except a few sickos, are reaching out to you now.

By By Angie.. Posted February 15 2009 at 11:44 PM.

i dont know what to say i sit here on a sunday evening heartbroken for you and your boys god bless you jade and your boys .i hope the short time you have left together is a happy time x

By wendy strickland .. Posted February 15 2009 at 10:58 PM.

Jade, thankfully I've never missed a smear test but having read this I have made a pact with myself that I NEVER will. How could I after reading your story? I'm a mother of a baby girl and understand the love you feel for your babies - and for you to have to let them go must be killing you more than the cancer itself. Please enjoy every precious second of happier things that will come your way over the coming weeks - and I wish you nothing but peace and harmony x

By S.. Posted February 15 2009 at 10:54 PM.

Jade - you are an inspiration. I feel for you so much. Keep smiling - you'll be missed.

By michelle conboy.. Posted February 15 2009 at 10:46 PM.

dear jade, god bless you x iv always liked you and watched you as what you see is what you get, your such an insperation xx you deserve the best wedding ever xx

By janine xx.. Posted February 15 2009 at 10:34 PM.

Jade,
I dont know what to say except I am so sorry.
You are so brave and such a wonderful woman.
Best wishes for your wedding.
Love n hugs
Liza x

By Liza.. Posted February 15 2009 at 10:34 PM.

Hi Jade so cant beleive what your going throw and i see you always still have a lovely big smile on your face sooooo brave you are. And dont worry you'r two boy's will defo remember you and remember what a wonderful person you were.

BE STRONG XXX

By marina.. Posted February 15 2009 at 10:18 PM.

Dear jade, How can I start"!!! I have always loved the way you have lived your life. with full of courage and pride for you children. My thoughts are with you now and for ever. Please if you need any help we are here

By tina sanderson.. Posted February 15 2009 at 10:21 PM.

Having read through that with streaming tears I just wanted to pass on my own experience which may be of small comfort. I lost my own mum when I was very young due to cancer and I want Jade to know that the memories stay with you forever, despite their age her boys will remember her and they will cherish every memory they hold. She will always be a perfect mum to them and she will be irreplacable in their hearts. Your smile will never die for them xXx

By Christine.. Posted February 15 2009 at 10:25 PM.

Dear jade
stay strong and keep focussed. u are an inspiration to all. Please keep your business private now and keep the paps away. You deserve some privacy and dignity now. Have a ball on yr wedding day, you will look gorgeous.
God bless u and yr boys.
love wendi xxxxxxxx

By wendi.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:54 PM.

Dearest Jade, Thanks to you so many other mothers and womens lives are now being saved, because without your story, they wouldn't have had a smear test. I'll continue to pray for you and your family and I know that when you are called home to heaven, God himself will bless you for all those you've helped. Have a wonderful day when you marry Jack, and may God bless you and your family always, love, Kay X X X

By Kay.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:54 PM.

God bless you and your babies.

By monika.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:49 PM.

Jade
You are an insparation to us all, through everything that you have gone through you have shown courage. You think about everyone around you before yourself.
You are a good mom and your boys will always know that you love them and you will always be in there hearts. I lost my mom to cancer when I was seven and not a day goes by where I don't think about her and I am now forty six.

God bless you all and keep you safe. You will be in my prayers.

Corrina
xx

By Corrina.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:48 PM.

Jade,

My heart goes out to you, you will never be forgotten.

Sharon X

By sharon.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:51 PM.

thinking of you jade, have always liked you god bless xx

By pam.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:28 PM.

I have never found anything so upsetting and I know I speak for the nation when I say sod what everyone else thinks you rake in every penny you can get for those kids and you do what you want to do and how you want to do it. Youve entertained us for years and now its your turn to do it your way. God give you the strength to go on as long as possible and without pain. This country loves you jade goody and I think you might see that now. I just wish you had found out under better circumstances, God bless you and them kids
Keep fighting girl

By Bernadette.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:34 PM.

Dear Jade

Hope you have the best wedding day, and it is everything you dreamed of and more. You truly deserve it. I have so much respect for you, you are an inspiration to us all. You are dealing with this with such dignity and courage. Your two little boys will never forget you. God bless you Jade, wishing you all the luck in the world. Lots and lots of love and hugs Tanya xxxxx

By Tanya.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:21 PM.

Jade, I have thought of nothing else for days now but of your brave battle and how you have helped so many people you don't even know, to live.
My daughter has had abnormal cells for 4 years now, from her very first smear at 20, last year it going to cn2, I know she will treat it seriously because of you.

I understand how you need to be so public for your boys, we should all respect your wish, when your time comes you need to feel peace and by you providing for your boys for now and there future will ease you to the other side. You have touched me and every one else a cross the world, I cry for you and wish you peace and happiness in the next couple of weeks.
A great tribute to your 2 young boys is that they will be able to know you threw your programmes and all the publicity you have endured as well as your true friends and family.
karen, cheshire
ps. a great suggestion above about bringing jades purfume back into shops, a great tribute to her from us, a legacey for her boys to be proud of and a great way to remind women about womens cancers

By karen.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:19 PM.

l am from Africa working here in U.k and my teenage daughters are in Africa ,jade l.ll never explain the feeling that l have now and the fear l have for my children since l read about you today.you have changed my ideas and brought tears in my eyes.l can,t wait but work hard and go home to my kids and spend more time with them ,l pray for a miracle for you i.e is an extension of your life.God bless you and your family.the lord is your shepherd;psalms 23

By grace.. Posted February 15 2009 at 9:16 PM.

Dear Jade and family, i am totally saddened to hear about your news. I feel for you and your family, your kids are so young and they will miss you terribly. I have followed your career since bb, and you have done so well for yourself, and your kids.
you have been judged so many times and the finger pointed at you and you have kept it all together. then this happens to you, its a very hard thing for anyone to deal with. I hope you have a lovely wedding and your last weeks precious, god bless you xxxxxxxx

By jackie.. Posted February 15 2009 at 7:26 PM.

im in floods of tears reading this article and i have daughters near your age and they have children too..you are amazing what courage..your boys will never forget you. the people you love wont let that happen.just wish i could help you get rid of that cancer,if only a wish could work.have a lovely wedding day..there's lots of people in this world sending their love to you..i just want to add mine to that list...love from all my family.and me carol xxxxooooxxxx

By carol.. Posted February 15 2009 at 7:06 PM.

Dear Jade
My family has been touched by cancer and I am sad, angry, fearful most days because I know that I will soon lose a sister. Tears flow as I write this because you don't deserve it. You are on my mind and I salute your strength, courage and love for your children. If there is one guarantee in this world is this; You will never be forgotten Jade. Family, friends, supporters and me. Much Love Always. Jackie x

By Jackie.. Posted February 15 2009 at 5:49 PM.

Hi Jade,

Your not alone, no words can take away the pain, you will never be forgotten and your boys will remember you forever, this is what you have achieved YOU SHOULD BE PROUD. You have achieved more in your short time then many put together. God bless and be proud love Jackie xxx

By Jackie.. Posted February 15 2009 at 5:39 PM.

Jade, my heart goes out to you. I'm from Malta but I always follow your heartbreaking story.You're Special in every way. Have faith in God x

By yvette.. Posted February 15 2009 at 5:25 PM.

Jade,
may god be with you and your family in this hour.
i admire you for having the courage and face the media.
You are an ambassador for all woman god be with you.

Brian Hansford
Malta

By Brian Hansford.. Posted February 15 2009 at 4:50 PM.

Jade my thoughts are with you, i hope you have a wonderful wedding. God bless you and all your loved ones. My heart goes out to you all. xxx

By amanda & family.. Posted February 15 2009 at 4:32 PM.

jade i would like to say you are a brave and courageous young woman and know your heart must be breaking but still show fight to make sure your two young sons will be cared for i admire your strenghth and courage may god bless you and your family through this difficult time i will never forget your smiling face your fight bourne with dignity hope u have a wonderful wedding day luv mags xx

By margaret newman.. Posted February 15 2009 at 4:13 PM.

so sorry jade, you have been so brave, i really was hoping you would get better, life can be so cruel, you have to believe there is a reason why god is taking such a young and good person away from her little boys, have the best time ever on your wedding day, love to you and your boys gail xx

By gail.. Posted February 15 2009 at 3:49 PM.

Your courage and strength are amazing jade, you should be so so proud of yourself XXX

By shelley.. Posted February 15 2009 at 3:48 PM.

Thankyou Jade for sharing your story with us. Your beautiful boys have a mum to be proud of and in the years that follow when you are no longer here they will have the wonderful memories of a strong, confident, beautiful woman that fought all the way.

I hope you have a beautiful wedding day and you have everything you want from your last days with your family and friends. I know we have never met but your story has touched me. god bless you jade and big love to you all xxxxx

By Ruth.. Posted February 15 2009 at 3:38 PM.

god love and protect you jade , and your precious boys , have a great wedding day surrounded by love from all who care for you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By sandra duncan.. Posted February 15 2009 at 3:21 PM.

Jade i just cannot get my head around why this has happened to you, ive been a fan of you since i very first seen you on Big brother asking if east anglia was abroad, you light up a room with your bubbly personality and huge warm smile, this just simply isnt fair, not at all.
I like many other was one of the ones who didnt go for regular smears and your story prompted me to get my but in gear and ive had it done now, you are a true inspiration and i will pray that some kind of miracle gets you through this, if anyone deserves to live hunny its you!
All my love and thoughts x x x Kim x x x

By Kim x from corby.. Posted February 15 2009 at 3:17 PM.

You’re a great Mum, and your boys will grow into fabulous young hardworking men. They will be a credit to your hard work and courage. You have family and many friends to help make your journey peaceful.

Jo & family xxxx

By Jo.. Posted February 15 2009 at 3:16 PM.

By gail.. Posted February 15 2009 at 3:36 PM.

Jade you are going through what every good mother dreads an ilness that will take them away from their beloved children, i know my daughter fears this and prays it never happens, you have shown bravery and dignity and one day when your boys are older they will remember the wonderful and caring mother who had to leave them but to her last day thought of their future , i am sure you will never be forgotten, i pray for peace for you and your family and only happy memories. love lesleyxx

By Lesley Lukes.. Posted February 15 2009 at 3:27 PM.

Dear Jade xxx you are such a brave young woman.i cant imagine how scared you are knowing that you are going to die and have to leave your beautiful boys and family behind. Everything you are doing in the public eye is for your boys future and they will undastand and be proud that you was their mummy and alwasys will be their mummy. I have cried many tears for you and your boys recently and i just wish i could gave you a big hug and tell you everything is gonna be ok...but you and i know thats not the case. So you have a beautiful wedding day and may god bless you with love and peace. My thoughts are with you your boys,Jack and your family. godbless you jade love sharon (mother of 3 young children)xxxxxxxxx

By sharon .. Posted February 15 2009 at 2:55 PM.

With or without hair Jade,you are a beautiful young lady,,,,,inside and out. You are an exceptoinal,honest human being,,,,,,,,human, being the operative word. Stop beating yourself up for past mistakes,,,there is not a person past or present, that has not made at least one in their life-time.If I could I would adopt you and be so proud to call you my daughter and your handsome boys my grandsons.The love that shines from you is immeasurable.It's a shame it cant be bottled,,,,I would buy it by the truck load.I just wish I could have been on your list of "friends or family", but wish even more I could do something to take away your "tadpoles". You really, really are beautiful in every possible way.ALL OF MY LOVE IS YOURS.XXX

By Joanne H.. Posted February 15 2009 at 1:55 PM.

I'm so sorry jade , my heart is breaking thinking of your little boys being without you ,make your wedding day the best day of their lives .Start making lists and plans for what you want for their future you might not be there but you can still be part of it if you put things into place now .Make memory boxes for each boy and put different messages on tape in each box and talk to them as if you are there in their future as one day maybe 10 years from now they will watch and want to feel that you are with them . This is a terrible thing that has happened to you jade but at least you have found out while you still have the strength and power to make life good for freddie and bobby because that is how you will live on through them and the men they will become. you can do this jade you will never be forgotten by them use this short time you have and you will know in your heart when your time comes that you have done all you could to ALWAYS be there for them . Theres a lot of love being sent to you take strength from it.x.

By molly .. Posted February 15 2009 at 1:55 PM.

she really is an amazing woman i hope her story makes more people aware that cancer does not care how old u are it really did for me i hope she gets the wedding she deserves god blessxx

By coleen symington.. Posted February 15 2009 at 12:15 PM.

Jade,

You are being thought of all around the world(I am in the Middle-East )you remain so positive, thoughtful and caring. You have made other young women more aware of Cervical cancer. Your gorgeous boys will be so proud of you.
God bless you and I wish you a memorable wedding.
Love Tina x

By Tina .. Posted February 15 2009 at 2:01 PM.

When l learnt that your illness was terminal i could not believe it, i honestly thought the papers were again trying to make us buy their papers., but sadly this is not the case. l cried sliently when l read the passage of the bible you shared with carole, it was so painful, my heart is so heavy writing this comments. May God be with you, and i know that if their is an Heaven( i am sure there is) you would be welcomed there. I would remember you in my prayers. God Bless and ENJOY your day.

By hariat.. Posted February 15 2009 at 2:02 PM.

Dear Jade,

You,ve always been in my from the day one i had about your illness. It has been difficult to get you out of my mind, putting myself in your shoes. Just keep fighting and continue to pray God because he said in his book that where there is no way, i will create ways for you, ask and i will answer. Just believe in him, be strong and remain courageous. May almight Father God bless you and your family. Love Susannah xxx

By Susannah .. Posted February 15 2009 at 12:21 PM.

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Jade's only interview

THERE are two Bibles by her bed. One is called the Living Bible. The other, an altogether more cheery version, is called The Good News Bible.

I need to need to keep saying it to convince myself there are wonderful things to come

You know Jack's been brilliant with all this. He's only young but he's handling it better than I ever dreamt he could

I'd been desperately trying to find the words to tell them what is happening to me

I don't want my sons to spend time thinking about it. It's too scary for them

At this point I really don't care what other people think. Now, it's about what I want

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