FINAL COUNTDOWN: Jade in hospital after being told there was nothing more doctors could do for her

Jade's only interview

By Carole Malone, 15/02/2009

UNTIL now, Jade Goody never believed she'd have to look death in the face.

She believed that if you really want to live, if you pray hard enough for it, if you throw every fibre of your being into making it happen- then you will.

Previously unseen footage of Jade Goody talking about her cancer battle

But that would be in a world where everything was right and fair and where miracles really DO happen.

Jade prayed long and hard for her miracle-but it never came. The cancer she has fought so valiantly has finally beaten her.

READ: MAYBE I'LL DIE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERAS, TOO

It took just a moment for doctors to snuff out the only glimmer of hope that had been lighting up the long dark days since her operation last week.

On Friday afternoon they gathered around her bed and told her there was nothing more they could do. The battle was over and they were sending her home to die.

"I couldn't breathe when they told me," says Jade. "I just screamed and cried and said, 'Can't anyone do anything to help me!' Because a few weeks ago when they first told me the chemo hadn't worked they said it didn't have to be the end.

"They said there were lots of other medicines out there and there were other things they could do.

I know they've done everything they can to help me and I'm grateful. But I really thought I might be OK

"And I believed them. And there they were telling me it was the end. I didn't want to believe it. I'm not blaming them. I know they've done everything they can to help me and I'm grateful. But I really thought I might be OK.

"But," she says quietly, "I suppose there was this little part of me that didn't. Since my bowel operation last week the pain has been getting worse and worse and I still haven't been to the loo and I knew that was a bad sign. But I was still praying for a miracle."

Jade says she was by herself when doctors delivered the news that brought her world crashing down around her:

LOVING MUM: To Freddie and Bobby

"I rang Jack immediately and he came running in. He was crying and so very upset. He just kept saying, 'All that chemo, all that pain and it was all for nothing'. He refused to accept it at first and he and the rest of the family started talking about getting me on a plane to America.

"They kept telling me they can do amazing things over there and that maybe there is some miracle cure that we don't know about.

"But as I listened to them I just kept thinking, 'It's too late for me. My time has run out.' All I want to do now is spend whatever time I have left with Jack and the kids.

"You know, when Jack came out of prison he had no idea how sick I was. And I know this is hard for him because he expected to get me back. He expected the chemo to work and that we'd have a life together as a family.

But I swear we WILL be a family before I die-just not for as long as I'd have hoped

"But I swear we WILL be a family before I die-just not for as long as I'd have hoped.

"I love Jack with all my heart and I want to be his wife more than anything in the world. And I will be.

"He's devastated but he's really trying to hold it together for me. But as soon as he found out I was going to die he just said, 'Right then we're getting married. You're a special woman, I love you and I would be honoured to call you my wife. And I don't care if it's just for a few weeks'." Jade knows that at 27 she's too young to die. And, yes, she wants to rant and rail and scream: "I want to ask God why he couldn't have given me more time with my boys.

"Just a bit-just enough to hear them laugh a few more times, to see that they're happy, to write them long letters so I can tell them who I was and how much I loved them and remind them about all the things we did together.

"Because they might forget me. And I can't bear the thought of that.

"I've decided I'm going to make them a Memory Box and put in lots of things that will remind them of me and what we did together. And maybe when they're older it will help them remember."

A few weeks ago Jade said something that I can't get out of my head. She said: "I keep asking myself what I did that was so bad that it had to end like this."

And as I listened to her I realised that's how she must see this. A deprived childhood with parents too stupid, too selfish and too drug- addicted to make a decent life for their little girl. So, the first chance she got she made one for herself. It's not the one every parent would have wanted for their daughter.

But for Jade fame and money helped her escape shackles of a miserable childhood, a childhood where she looked after everyone but no-one looked after her.

But the biggest prize in her glitzy new life wasn't the fame or the money-it was her beloved boys, Freddie, four, and Bobby, five. Jade once told me she believed she'd been given the chance to make good what had happened in HER childhood through her boys.

She was determined that they would have a totally different life to the one she'd had.

They would have a beautiful home, they would have money-but best of all they would have an education, something the street-savvy Jade had always wanted for herself. And the boys truly are a credit to her. They're sweet, well adjusted, well behaved children and Jade's biggest joy is that she's able to pay for them to go to a private school

"When I first knew I had cancer I worked out a strategy," she said. "I thought if I earn enough money while I'm sick there will be enough for them to go to private school until they are 18.

I want my boys to have the very best chance in life they can have

"I know people think I'm betraying my roots by sending them to a private school but I want them to have the very best chance in life they can have. And that's what my money is for. What's the point of everything I have if I can't do that for them?"

Jade Goody is an enigma. Even now, when she knows she has less than eight weeks to live, there is resoluteness about her, a strength that is hard to fathom.

When she was first diagnosed and we talked I kept thinking she didn't really understand what was happening to her. I thought she didn't understand that she might die.

And, God forgive me, I put it down to the fact she might not be very bright and that she hadn't fully grasped the seriousness of her condition.

But now I see she always understood. She always knew.

She just put the cancer-stricken Jade away in a box, the one she thought might die, and she kept bringing out the Bright, Bubbly, Indefatigable Jade, the one people expected to see-the one no-one believed for a second would die. And no-one really did. Until now . . .

But now I see it helped her cope. It's still helping her cope as she prepares for the big white wedding she always dreamed of.

She won't talk about funeral arrangements. Instead she wants to talk about wedding planners, make-up artists, dresses and wedding cakes.

And just hours after she'd been told she was going to die a friend overheard her and Jack laughing uproariously in her room.

When he asked what was going on Jade was shouting: "Don't tell him, don't tell him!"

What had happened was that Jack was trying to show Jade how to break wind so that her swollen stomach might feel just a little more comfortable.

And last night-just a day after her terrible news-Jade was busily getting ready for a Valentine's Day party with her friends.

It was being held in a little ante- room next to her bedroom and even though Jack can't stay with her on what will be her last ever Valentine's Day-because of the conditions of his prison electronic-tag curfew-she was determined to make the best of it and have a party.

All her friends and their partners readily agreed to give up their own Valentine's Day celebrations to drink champagne with Jade.

"As Jack's not here my best friend Jen is going to be my date," says Jade. "But that's OK. I'll have my day with Jack and it WILL be the best day of my life."

WEDDING DAY SHE LONGS FOR

JUST hours after being told she was going to die, Jade Goody's drug-fuddled mind shuddered into sharp focus.

The fatigue and the grim news that her life now had a time limit were dispensed with. I'd talked to her earlier in the day and she could barely stay awake. But now her survival instincts had kicked in. There was no time to sleep. She had a wedding to plan and very little time to do it.

So at 11pm on Friday she started ringing friends and family-bombarding them with demands and giving them very precise lists of what she wants them to do.

She wanted names of good make-up artists and she wanted to know about wedding cakes. What vicar could marry her in such a short time? And was there a caterer who could pull a wedding like this together in a week? Because Jade knows that's all the time she has to plan what will be one of the happiest-and probably one of the saddest-days of her life. And instead of wasting time on how she is going to die, this incredible woman decided instead to throw every last ounce of her energy into how she was going to live.

The wedding will be in the next week -even though she hasn't yet picked a church or a vicar. And she's determined it will be wonderful.

"For a few hours she was like a whirling dervish," a friend said last night. "She paid a heavy price for it the next day because she was in excruciating pain. But for the few hours she was able to function she went at those wedding arrangements like a woman possessed.

"It was hard to believe she'd just been told she was going to die. I don't know where that energy came from but I guess it's because she knows time is now short and God bless her, she's making the most of every minute. She decided if she didn't have time to sleep then the rest of us weren't going to either. And that's absolutely fine. Everyone who loves her knows how important this day will be to her."

Jade has decided she wants a Bentley to drive her to the church and a helicopter to take her to the reception. "It's something she's always wanted," says her friend. "And at this moment what Jade wants, Jade is going to get."

And it isn't just a wedding Jade has to plan. Lawyers will be arriving at her home in Essex next week to put the finishing touches to her will which is expected to say that all Jade's money and her three properties will go to her kids.

"She wants the boys' education sorted out," said the friend. She wants where they're going to live sorted out and she wants to make sure there's enough money so they will always be secure.

"It's heartbreaking but it has to be done. And Jade knows it."

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hi jade, god bless sweety!! xoxox
tre xx

By tracey fitzgerald. Posted March 21 2009 at 10:46 PM.

Hi Jade, I really do hope you get better, Zoe

By Zoe Thurbon. Posted March 19 2009 at 8:40 PM.

theres lots of words to describe you but the one i choose to use is ANGEL. GOD BLESS YOU . i will always carry the memories of you and your boys with me forever and ever. lots of love avaxxxx

By ava. Posted March 19 2009 at 1:47 AM.

Kia ora Jade and family,

I am half a world away in new zealand but am still thinking of you all. While i was living in LHR i enjoyed a fantastic summer watching you Jade on Big Brother. You are an amazing worman that has touched so many peoples hearts. All my best wishes and love are with you, Freddie, Bobby, Jack and your mother. All our love from here in New Zealand xxoo

By Karen. Posted March 16 2009 at 11:04 AM.

To Jade and Family

Alway know theres alot who are with you all the way and praying for you all at this time
Jade you have the most courage i know andyou are an insperation to us all.
I know there is nothing we can do but keep you and your family in all are thoughts
Love to all at this time xxxx

By Venetia Barlow. Posted March 16 2009 at 1:22 AM.

life is forever lasting, we have all immortal souls and we all meet up again

By randy. Posted March 15 2009 at 9:59 AM.

Dear Jade, my mum battled bowel cancer in 2005 and after 2 long years she was given just weeks to live. She battled to the end and through the tears and laughter it was with dignity that she closed her eyes for the last time. She gives me strength every day as I remember her and know that she is here with me always.

Your boys will remember you everyday.

Its time to close your eyes where you will be free from pain.

Rachel

By Rachel. Posted March 15 2009 at 9:34 AM.

By Rachel. Posted March 15 2009 at 9:32 AM.

hi jade ,not sure what to say really,only to try stay strong for you and your children.

By peter firth. Posted March 13 2009 at 8:49 PM.

Jade
You are an inspiration. You have achieved so much and your boys will be so proud in years to come. Stay safe and be proud. x x x

By Sally. Posted March 12 2009 at 11:25 PM.

As I read your story and cried, I have asked God for healing and Mercy. I believe In devine healing Jade and I pray that you get to read these comments.

By Curry. Posted March 11 2009 at 11:53 PM.

Jade,

I met you on a plane to Tobago in 2007, I was stuggling with my luggage and my 2 children looking for our seats and you were the only person that offered to help me. I really appreciated that Jade and I remember thinking to myself what a lovely kind caring person you were and wanted to speak to you but felt a bit shy(I wish I had now). Your beautiful little boys will always remember the great times they had with their mummy, and will grow up to be intelligent young men (make u proud)

p.s sometimes the lord may seem far away but he's not he right there next to you loving you.

God Bless...Samantha x

By Samantha. Posted March 11 2009 at 12:51 AM.

Dearest Jade,
Your honesty and bravery puts all of us to shame your handling of the situation gives all of us a lesson in life to stop grumbling over menial stuff to appreciate simple things and yes i adore just spending time with my kids i dont believe in being a supermum YOU are the greatest example to all humanity since Lady Diane There are many people in this world but VERY few of us are truly HUMAN you are by far the most down to earth person I have ever seen on TV I honestly admire everthing you have done and I am praying for you and hope to God you will get out of all this and continue living your well deserved life with your two beautiful boys.Keep strong there are millions of people praying for you we simply cannot watch tv without you you have become part of our family and we truly love you May God bless you and make you better whatever it takes WE are all thinking of you pls get better From Mags Russell and Emma xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.........................................................................

By Margaret Attard Baldacchino. Posted March 5 2009 at 12:16 AM.

Dear Jade
Stay strong . Don't give in. You are so young and my heart breaks for you and your boys and family. If anyone can come through this hun , with Gods help , you can . You have SO much love and support from the whole world, believe that you can get through this. Drs aren't ALWAYS right. Only God can say how long we've got.
loads of love
Jan xxxxxxxxxxxxx

By jan. Posted March 1 2009 at 9:48 AM.

hi jade
when i heard about u iwas very sad.ican say u r so brave cos u stil smiling for evrything thst no one cant do it.ipromise u im gona pray for u evry day.thx.we love you jade

By daniel-kurdish. Posted February 27 2009 at 10:11 PM.

you are an inspiration and I know your sons will never forget you hopefully they will have lots of videos to watch, and maybe you can do one for them to watch of you telling them and reminding them how much you love them and are going to watch over them from heavon and that they will never be alone.
I will be thinking of you all the time, you are very special and I hope you are not in any pain.

love Grainne and my baby son jack xx

By Grainne Sanders. Posted February 25 2009 at 8:59 PM.

Hi Jade,

Just wanted to say that your a truly an inspiration, of Courage but far more someone who is a fantastic mother. Your beautiful boys will never forget you as you have showered them with so much love that it will remain with them forever. Lots & lots of love to you all

xxxx

By sonia. Posted February 24 2009 at 9:18 PM.

Dear Jade,

I hope you had an amazing day today ! I cant imagine what its going to be like for your sons when the time comes. I seen a video of you and your two sons on youtube. Its a nice video. Your a great mum to them two boys. I don't think you deserve this. Nobody does. But your just 27 with two young sons. Well i wish you and your family well. Rory xxxxxxxx

By Rory . Posted February 22 2009 at 9:05 PM.

Dear Jade,

My mum was diagnosed with Breast cancer 8 weeks before you were 5 weeks before my wedding actually. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to be a part of, but we managed to focus on the wedding and create some wonderful memories for us all she is 5 weeks away from completing her radiotherapy. At the time I didn't always understand the interviews you did, but now it all makes sense. What you have done for your boys is truly imspirational and the awareness that you have created regarding this issue is something to be admired. I hope you have a wonderful day today Mrs Jack Tweed and hope it is everything and more that you wished for.

God Bless

Tracy x x

By Tracy. Posted February 22 2009 at 5:45 PM.

have a great day. wish i couid be ther to see it.it will be fab.i wish there was some think we couid for you , its so sad i pray to god you will some how get well for your children, good luck jade & family jan& family xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By janet williams. Posted February 21 2009 at 11:22 PM.

THINKING OF YOU TOMORROW ENJOY YOUR SPECIAL DAY LOTS OF LOVE XX

By frances. Posted February 21 2009 at 11:02 PM.

dear jade praying for you and hoping you can fine peace and happieness god bless you and your family

love always

By susan scales. Posted February 21 2009 at 10:44 PM.

I had treatment for abnormal cells I was lucky it cured me I didnt have to go back. I'm praying that the cancer will go into remission on its own. I want to see healthy and carefree Jade again. I want you to live babes xxx

By z maez. Posted February 21 2009 at 10:48 PM.

Hi Jade,
Hope you have a good day tomorow. Make it the best day ever. My heart is with you x x x

By Rachiex. Posted February 21 2009 at 10:25 PM.

Jade,

My heart is breaking for you. Have a fab wedding and get as much money as you can for your sons, no one will grudge you for this.

I wish you all the best xx

By lynsey. Posted February 21 2009 at 10:07 PM.

Jade

You are in the same league as Princess Diana, real women relate to you and you will be remembered just like her .
To do what you are doing in the public eye for the love of your boys and to increase the awareness of cancer is just inspirational.
Jade - we will all go one day but you already have your angels around you xxx loved by the world xxx

By Sharan R. Posted February 21 2009 at 9:59 PM.

dear jade &jack freddie& bobbie

jade don't ever give up the fight we are all praying that god will answer your call and let you have that miracles you need to see your wonderful boys grow into young men god bless you jade xxxx

By paul and jackie ainger. Posted February 21 2009 at 9:03 PM.

Dear Jade,

I never have had the pleasure of meeting u but have always been nosey in the papers to see what you have been getting up to. But what I have heard over the past few weeks has saddened me deeply. My heart goes out to you and your family. I cant possibly imagine how you must feel and what thoughts are running through your mind. At least something great is coming out of all the sadness and thats your marriage to Jack. I hope your big day is all you have ever wished for and you will be such a beautiful bride. Good luck Jade!! Big hugs and kisses for your gorgeous sons. They have got a great mum!!! Lots of love Jade xxx

By Amii Evans. Posted February 21 2009 at 5:45 PM.

may you have a magical day, you have more than earned it. I haven't always liked what you've done but I truly admire your strength to turn your life around and your utter devotion to your boys. They will grow up, strong in the knowledge that you loved them and did everything for them.
Safe journey Jade

By nejah. Posted February 21 2009 at 2:20 PM.

Dear Jade,

I have never had the privilege to meet you but my heart goes out to you and the boys. I hope you have the happiest day ever on Sunday. Your boys will never ever forget you and they are a credit to you. For some reason, having just lost my mum, God does take the best ones too early.

God bless you all. Tina x

By Tina. Posted February 21 2009 at 1:48 PM.

jade i know thers still hope out there don' give up never lose faith always belive never give in.iM KEEEPING YOU IN MY THOUGHTS I KNOW U CAN FIGHT CANCER MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!never lose sight in that .You are an insparation to soo many ppl.Jade dnt give just don't just don't.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By jessica pozi. Posted February 21 2009 at 1:36 PM.

Dear Jade, nobody knows what life has in store for us and it can turn out really unfair at times and do feel extremely sad that you are only three years younger than me having to go through such a devastating trauma wish I could reach out my hand and make it better for you in some way honey....you are a beautiful and bubbly human being with a huge heart who will never ever be forgotten. God bless ya sole gurl!!!!!

By angela webb. Posted February 21 2009 at 7:03 AM.

God bless you and I hope you have a amazing wedding day....... You are one of a kind.

By anne. Posted February 21 2009 at 5:16 AM.

oh my God that sadness and pain to know a young woman suffering and know that you left a few days of life God bless you and a miracle to happen to you .. jade god bless you my prayers for you and your children .. you are a very brave woman..

By noreyda. Posted February 21 2009 at 6:19 AM.

Since your first appearance on Big Brother you have inspired me to make the most things and turn horrible situations around. Be proud of what you have acheived, so much much more than most people ever accomplish, be confident in your two sons and the happy successful futures you have given them. You will always be with them. I wish you the best.

By Clyde. Posted February 21 2009 at 3:54 AM.

Jade,

Be happy as you go on your way.

Love
A Fan
x

By Frances Regan. Posted February 21 2009 at 1:25 AM.

its horrible to hear whats happening to you, but i hope your wedding day is the best it could ever be!

love to you and your family

xxxx

By Kayda. Posted February 21 2009 at 12:02 AM.

Jade, no words to describe the sadness and pain that your going through.
You will never be forgotten, you will have saved many lives with your highlighting of the necessity of cervical smear testing.
Your boys will remember you with pride, you may not be there in body but they will have precious memories of you and will always be able to remember how special you were, how much you loved them and have devoted your final months actions and thoughts for them. They will know that their mum holds love for them that will last forever.
I hope your wedding day is what you hope for, you will never be forgotten hunni xxxxxxxxx

By jane. Posted February 21 2009 at 12:27 AM.

Bless you Jade, i am so sorry to hear your news, you are such a BRAVE, COURAGEOUS, BEAUTIFUL YOUNG WOMAN who doesn't deserve to be going through this.
You are such an inspiration Jade, i was 5 YEARS OVERDUE for my cervical screening and on hearing your devastating news i got my act together and had my screening test done, my results came back clear.
Had it not been for you Jade i probably would have left it even longer and maybe things could have been very different for me.
I feel like YOU HAVE SAVED ME, THANK YOU JADE.
I send you all my love for your big day on sunday when you become MRS JADE TWEED.
Bobby and Freddie must be so proud to have such a special mummy.
God Bless You Jade.. xxxxx

By sarah from merseyside. Posted February 21 2009 at 12:23 AM.

jade,
so sorry to hear of your news.we will always remember you as the cheeky,bubbly girl who touched everyone's heart.
you have so much courage,and you're such an inspiration.
have a fantastic day on sunday and we will be thinking of you all,especially your boys.

By joanne. Posted February 20 2009 at 10:22 PM.

Sending you the very best wishes for a beautiful, happy day on Sunday. You said you worry that your boys will forget you. Your day on Sunday will give them the most amazing and perfect memories of you which will stay with them forever. Enjoy your special day.
xx

By Viki. Posted February 20 2009 at 4:18 PM.

Jade.....

Always remember for every single, disgusting comment made by people, there are probably 10.000 positive ones. For every hater, there are probably 10.000 lovers. For every person that spreads hatered, there are probably 10.000 spreading love.....but human nature allows us to focuss on the bad!

This is YOUR time and YOUR FAMILIES TIME. DO WHAT YOU ALL WANT. Forget about the public, the media, the polls and opinions of those that lack compassion. Do as you see fit. As long as it's your wish, 99% of the public are behind you. The one thing no-one can doubt is the love you have for your children, (although no doubt there will be the odd few!). As a mother of three myself, if I couldn't provide for my children now, then I would do all I could to financially secure their futures in preparation of my absence. I believe most loving mothers would.

I wish you all the very best for eternity. May you have the dream wedding you so rightly deserve. May you forget all the heartache surrounding you on that day, and I hope it is a day that will remain with you, and provide a bright light, on dark days.

All my love, heartfelt wishes and hopes to you and your family.

By Alexandria. Posted February 20 2009 at 3:46 PM.

My thoughts are with you and your family. I really wish and pray that a miracle will come for you Jade

I hope you have a Magical Wedding Day

x

By Natalie . Posted February 20 2009 at 1:48 PM.

Dear Jade,
I hope you would have a wonderful wedding. Many people is looking at you, admiring your brave, your determination, your energy.
Good luck to you and your kids.

By Linh Nguyen. Posted February 20 2009 at 11:04 AM.

Dear Jade
You became a celebrity at a tender age and leaving this sinful world so soon as well. However you have an opportunity, now that you have few months to live to accept Jesus Christ as your personal savior, remember not everyone has the rare chance of knowing wnen death is coming. So please use this to your advantage so you can make heaven and avoid hell fire. Your concentration should now be focused on the judgement day. Denounce your sin, proclaim Jesus as your savior and hopefully I will see you again on the right hand of God.

By ABI DADA. Posted February 20 2009 at 8:45 AM.

JADE HAVE FAITH AND BELIEVE GOD, WHEN THE DOCTORS SAYS THEIR IS NO CURE FOR YOUR CANCER I AM SURE THE GOD THAT WE SERVE CAN HEAL YOU, PLEASE DO NOT GIVE IN TO DEATH , I BELIEVE THAT YOU WILL BE A LIVING TESTIMONY TO THE NATION TO WITNESS WHAT GOD CAN DO. JUST KEEP ON SAYING THAT I SHALL NOT DIE BUT LIVE TO PROCLAIMED THE GOODNESS OF GOD. JADE PLEASE CLAIM YOUR HEALING RIGHT NOW IN THE NAME OF JESUS JUST BELIEVE AND YOU WILL BE HEAL.

By ANDREA WYNTER. Posted February 20 2009 at 7:41 AM.

dear jade
you are a wonderful mum to bobby and freddie and that will never change.all the fun loving moments you have spent with them and the abundance of love you have shown them both will always be there with them.you will always be part of them both and they will always have eachother.your a ray of sunshine and an inspiration to us all.have the most fantastic wedding day.all my love and best wishes to you,jack and the boys love jennyxxxxxxx

By jenny. Posted February 20 2009 at 1:09 AM.

Jade - your sad news has effected me so deeply - I'm sad for you honey. You did not deserve this but I'm so proud of your courage and strenght and how you are setting your boys up for like with your selflessness. You'll always be near them honey , you know that don't you. Have the best wedding ever hope that it's everything you ever dreamed of XX

By Georgina . Posted February 20 2009 at 1:21 AM.

Jade - your sad news has effected me so deeply - I'm sad for you honey. You did not deserve this but I'm so proud of your courage and strenght and how you are setting your boys up for life with your selflessness. You'll always be near them honey , you know that don't you. Have the best wedding ever hope that it's everything you ever dreamed of XX

By Georgina . Posted February 20 2009 at 1:21 AM.

Jade,
Your amazing keep on fighting & stay strong for your boys! Get well soon & Miracles happen once and a while when you have faith. Faith is a bluebird you see from a far you can't touch or buy it or wrap it up tight but it's there just the same making things turn out right.
Best wishes,
Maddii xxx

By Maddii. Posted February 20 2009 at 1:49 AM.

hi jade i think you are a amazing women i look up to you as you voice your opions as you are very straight to the point with people. i was very sad for you when you found out you had cancer i know how your boys fill my dad died of terminal cancer at the age of 43 i hope you have a nice weddig and it is the wedding of your dreams i am so sorry for you i hope these last months you get to do everything you want to do i really luv the way you are showing your story to every one to give self awerness i am going to do the cancer run this year and when i do it i will think of you and my dad i lost him last year at the age of 18 please dont feel sad be happy my dad just said to me everything happens in life for a reason you are a great person i am watching your story all the way till the end i even have your exercise dvd you make me laugh just keep happy and keep going ok babe luv ya loads i hope your boys are ok and i think they are gorgeous just like you look at your boys they are the only inspiration you need to keep going ajnd when you know your time is up dont let them say goodbye because its not you still there but not in person ok keep going ok luv ya natashia norton please email back would really like to here from you good luck luv ya loads natashia norton xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By natasia norton. Posted February 19 2009 at 11:19 PM.

Dear Jade, My heart is filled with so much sadness to hear about your cancer battle.
You are such an inspiration to all the people, you are really brave and your sons will always know how much you love them.
I really hope you can get through this, I pray to God you will.

By Anne. Posted February 19 2009 at 11:38 PM.

Hello Jade,

You made me laugh when you were in BB. You inspired me with all your hard work since. You captured my heart with your honesty and amazed me with your courage. You made me see sense about getting my over due smear test done. For all of this, thank you.

You will leave a legacy of love and laughter for your boys, don't worry they'll never forget having such a fabulous mum.

With love to you and your family X

By Sarah. Posted February 19 2009 at 11:32 PM.

God be at your side always till the end and beyond
"blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God"
you Jade are one of the purest hearted people, you are honest to a fault, what you see is what you get.

May your family be comforted as you walk through the valley, may your children grow to be as pure hearted ,as funny, and as clever as their wonderful mummy.

God bless you

By Gail. Posted February 19 2009 at 11:53 PM.

jade u r sooo brave its so heartbreaking what is happening to u i have watched ur programme this evening and i havent stopped cryin since it soo sad but u r so incredibley brave u r a true insperation. ignore anyone who puts u down or slates u for all the pulicity u have right now. i think u r doing the right thing and giving ur sons the best u can...i hope ur wedding all goes to plan and u have an amazing day u deserve it more than anything i hope its everything u dream of and im prayin u get a mircale...take care and i hope u enjoy ur special day annd finally becoming jacks wife all my love my thought and prayers are with u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By katie. Posted February 20 2009 at 12:07 AM.

Dear Jade

You are the bravest woman I've ever thought of. I am from Mumbai - India. I have known about the BB show in UK. I don't care who is politically correct on that issues. But my heart goes for you.

Love
Aki

By Aki. Posted February 20 2009 at 12:15 AM.

Wow Jade!!
You have so touched my heart. I am In Victoria Australia, and at the moment our State is going through the worst natural disaster in history. There are heartbreaking stories left right and center, but YOU, You have touched my heart in a way that I am actually scared about. I am a Mum of two beautiful boys myself, and to have to come to terms with not being there for them would be impossible.
I can see the love you have for them and life in general in your eyes, you are an inspiration Jade, you dont deserve this but you are living it to the end.
May your wedding day be the best there is, The Sun will shine for you that day, the birds will sing their loudest, tears will flow and your smile will say to everyone out there battling cancer "There are bright days amongst the dark days, no matter what"
All the very very very best wishes to you Jade.
Luv Jen

By Jennifer Walhouse. Posted February 20 2009 at 12:54 AM.

Dear Jade what has happened to you is so terrible and I feel so very sorry for you. As a mother myself I know I could not bear to leave my daughter to grow up without me to guide her. I know you would give anything to be there from them but take heart in that they will know you did everything you could to try to do that. They will know just how brave and strong you have been. Enjoy your wedding you deserve it. xxx

By Jane. Posted February 19 2009 at 10:52 PM.

Being honest when I watched BB I thought oh my goodness Then came Celebrity BB and personally, I do not think for one minute that you are a racist. As you have well documented you did not have the best education and therefore you were niaive. Certain parties of the British public decied to make you a scapegoat. Hey, Pricne Harry has never been a scapegoat and he has had an education! Double standards eh?From the moment everyone found out about your cancer we were hoping, simply because no matter who you are or what you think of someone, no-one dserves this. Then there was the first interview and perhaps like many, I thought you were selling your story (my apologies). For some strange reason I read the interview and realised that you were doing this for your boys and to make more awareness of this awful disease and that you are God damn decent, humble human being. Then, on Saturday, I woke to read the headline, what many had been dreading and my heart broke. I meant to write last weekend but I am so glad didn't as I have just watched Jade. Your continuous humor and common sense in the face of disfunction is remarkable. You are an inspiration and one day, when your boys are old enough to understand, they will stand with their heads held high wth pride. You are no longer Jade Goody, BB but Jade Goody, the person, an inspiration and in my eyes up there with the best of them, an icon. All my loveS x

By Sharon. Posted February 19 2009 at 11:03 PM.

Dear Jade,

I can't believe what is happening to you!!! :(
I feel so sorry for you and wish there was something I could do to help.
Just keep going Jade,
For as long as you can,
The whole nation is right there behind you,
Hoping and praying that a miracle will happen so you can live happily with your family.
I hope you enjoy your dream wedding, and hope that you'll be ok during it.
Just keep going, please, as far as you can go.
With all the love and hope in the world,

Sarah

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By Sarah Rogerson. Posted February 19 2009 at 1:25 PM.

Dear Jade,

God bless you, you are an insperation to all of us.
Hope your wedding brings you all the joy that you deserve. You are so so brave.

Helen

By Helen. Posted February 19 2009 at 1:18 PM.

Hey

U r remarkable and amazing person.
I wish to god you could get through this.
I send you all my luck!!
All my love and hugs.

xxxxx

By Claire. Posted February 19 2009 at 1:58 PM.

I worked with you once on one of your first shoots after you came out the BB House. We were in tiny little flat with no room to move. It was peeing it down with rain outside. The crew were grumpy, I was tired and grumpy and you were under some stairs messing about with Avid Merrion! It ended up being one of the funniest shoots I've ever done and one of the easiest days I've ever had earning a crust.
Thank you for making me smile, I'll never forget the amazing positive impact you had on everyone around you.
That impact will never be lost even if you won't be here to see it. You leave behind you a trail of love, fun and laughter like a little fairy. You're boys will always see that.
Safe Journey x

By jo Dillon. Posted February 19 2009 at 12:31 PM.

Jade,

You are a truely remarkable women with such courage. You have touched so many people. I hope you had the most amazing wedding day you have ever dreamed of. You are a wonderful mum and your boys will always remember all the happy memories that have shared wth you.

Thinking of you
Natalie

By Natalie . Posted February 19 2009 at 12:26 PM.

So precious so little time.
A message for you and your family to keep you strong. NEVER FORGET
NEVER FORGOTTEN
FOREVER IN YOUR HEART
FOREVER IN YOUR LIFE
REMEMBER ME
I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE
If you resd this godbless, so brave you are a true star and no one will forget you .

By Emma Davis. Posted February 19 2009 at 10:12 AM.

Dear Jade, you are a courageous person. I want you to know that Jesus loves you. In everything, God has a purpose and yours is no different. The important thing is to have Jesus in your life. Even though you may walk through the valley of the shadow of death you shall fear no evil for God is there waiting for you. Won't you ask Jesus to come into your life? Because Jesus lives, you can face tomorrow.

By Dr. E B Tan, Malaysia.. Posted February 19 2009 at 9:06 AM.

Jade,

You Are An Insperation To Everyone , You Have Made Everyone Proud By Standing Up And facing The Facts With A Brave Face.

Your Kids Have To Remember You Your Such A Buble And Funny Charector.

Your So Brave Jade. !

Hope Your Wedding Is Everything You Wanted.

I'm Really Sorry To Here You New's.

All The Best With Your "Miricle Pills".

God Bless Such A Brave And Lovely Soul.

All My Love Ashley . xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

By Ashley. Posted February 19 2009 at 2:36 AM.

God bless you Jade.

Lorena from Netherlands

By Lorena Rodriguez. Posted February 18 2009 at 11:36 PM.

jade i am praying for you on 26th july 2002 i had my son after greeting him i took him to the tv room to see if you had won big bro and was gutted to find you came 3ed but you see you did win becouse you have tuched so many lives and i call that winning so i pray you keep winning good luck and i pray you get better and soon love andrea

By andrea. Posted February 18 2009 at 10:51 PM.

Hi Jade

I know you probably won't read this but just thought i would say you are in our thoughts and our prayers. I can't believe how brave you are.

I couldn't believe it when I heard over the radio what had happened and ever since you have been in our thoughts. You will get your dream and be married to the man you love and have your special little boys by your side with you. I can't believe it is happening to onw of the good ones out there.

My heart bleeds for you Jade. Leaving thoses gorgeous little blys behind and it must be horrible knowing you are leaving them behind.

Hope you have a wonderful wedding Jade!!!

GOD BLESS
YOU ARE IN OUR THOUGHTS
JESS, NAY AND LILY

By Jess. Posted February 18 2009 at 10:55 PM.

Your sons won´t forget You- they´ll have memories and photos!! You will guard them always, where ever Your are! I will send You again a prayer here from Finland.

By mari. Posted February 18 2009 at 9:22 PM.

dear jade, you are in my thoughts and prayers 24/7.you are a very brave person. you carry on what you doing grab everything you can for your boys,they bwill always know you love them with all your being,and they will always be proud that you are their mum.sending you huge hugs you are my inspiration.love always x

By fiona moseley. Posted February 18 2009 at 9:36 PM.

i know you probably won't read this but my heart and thoughts are with you I can't even imagine what you are going through but all I know is that you are a strong,loving mother all you care about is your beautiful children you are thinking about them and not yourself , you have a great wedding jade a lovely beautil wedding that your family and children will cherish . I will pray for you every night all my love xxxx

By emma burnett. Posted February 18 2009 at 8:35 PM.

JADE KEEP THAT BIG SMILE GOING YOUR A RAY OF SUNSHINE .
HAVE A LOVEY WEDGDING DAY ON SUNDAY.
AND YOU AND ALL YOUR FAMILY HAVE A GOOD DAY JADE MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS BE SHORT BUT JUST BE TRUE.
A@A
MANCHESTER.
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By angela ) anthony. Posted February 18 2009 at 9:12 PM.

I just had to write to you and say how brave i think you have been through all of this. I watched the seriousness of it all unfold on your show and whilst i dont know you personally, i often see you out, and have been deeply touched by this....
Life is cruel, and you really deserve more.
Your in my thoughts,

By Victoria ferrer. Posted February 18 2009 at 7:23 PM.

Jade

My thoughts are with you your children, Mother and future Husband, Grandparents and other members of your Family and Friends.

All of you enjoy the Wedding-Day and Christenings.

Jade-Your strength of character has always been to the fore and it is not letting you down now. The number of women you may potentially have saved by being so Public about your own illness, knows no bounds.

I think they will all owe you a debt of thanks in the future.

Good-Luck Jade and thank-you

By Jenna. Posted February 18 2009 at 6:40 PM.

Dear Jade,

I dont know how you are coping but I can imagine that you are in great pain and sometimes there may be relief at the end of all that.

You can at least know that you have been an inspiration to us all and that you have been an excellent mother to your two lovely boys, for that you have no guilt.

Your sons will grow up knowing that their mum loved them dearly.

Take care darling xxxxx

Luv Sue

By Sue West, Hull. Posted February 18 2009 at 6:20 PM.

Dear Jade,
I just want to say that this is not the end and I have seen God turn these kind of cases around for His glory. NOTHING is impossible with God!!!!! BELIEVE!!!! A woman back in 2000 was riddled with cancer and like you the doctors told her she only had a few months to live. Prayer changed things for her and years on she is still alive today. Also there is a minister in America called Creflo Dollar who can tell you all about his story, give him a call. Don't give up Jade. All you need is FAITH. Please read The Holy Bible book of Mark 11:22-25. Also keep quoting Isaiah 53:5 Please do this in Jesus name. God is REAL Jade. Fight back!!

You and your children are in my thoughts and prayers.

Be Blessed
Miss S Harmon

By Miss S Harmon. Posted February 18 2009 at 4:52 PM.

Dear Jade,

What can I possibly say to make things better? As I write this my heart breaks for you that you have been placed in this awful situation. Please always remember that we all think you are a wonderful person, your boys would never forget you ever. You may not be here to bring them up but you have given them the best start any child could ever ask for by being a wonderful and fabulous mum. I feel as if I know you Jade and this sad news has affected me deeply and I am sorry I cant do anything to change that for you, because I would If I were able to. Keep smiling Jade and be brave, you will never die Jade because you will forever live within your two beautiful sons. God bless

By samantha. Posted February 18 2009 at 3:50 PM.

jade,

your boys will always remember you, i wish you all the happiness and have a lovely wedding, god bless you... xxx

By jazz- east ham. Posted February 18 2009 at 2:49 AM.

Jade, before smear tests were upped to the age of 25, i got a lettter at 21 advising me that it was time for mine. I kept putting it off because i was scared and did not know what would happen to me. I received another letter at 25 (Sep 08) this was shortly after you had found out you had cancer, because of this, it made me realise i had to go to the doctors and not put it off for a moment longer....thank you for making me realise what could have happened if i had kept avoiding it, im sure there are other females who you have encouraged to go get smear tests, you should be so proud of that, you may have helped someone else avoid cancer, it just a shame that you didn't avoid it. Im so sorry, enjoy the time you have left and do all the things that you can within that time, your sons will not forget you, you are unique xxxx

By Michelle. Posted February 18 2009 at 1:57 AM.

Jade

I am so incredibly sorry. Your sad news has touched me in a way I didn't expect, I am heartbroken for you. I have cried so much for you in the last few days, which if you knew me is just soooo not me. I don't know if its because I feel I know you having watched all your ups and downs from day 1 in Big Brother till now.

From what I have read you have had so many offers of lovely help towards your wedding which I hope you'll grab with both hands! It will be a happy and sad day for you but you are giving a beautiful gift to Jack, something permanent for him to remember you by. I hope your day is everything you ever dreamed of.

Your boys will never forget you, none of us will. I know you continue to work for your boys education but what you are also doing is creating a record of yourself that they will be able to look at and cherish. Arrange for the Big Brother series, your Living TV shows and all your newspaper and magazine features to be put together and kept safe for your boys, they'll feel very close to you when they watch them back in years to come.

You deserved so much more. Your life has been a fraction of what is should have been but just look at what you achieved! Would you have ever dare dream that you'd have had this career when you were struggling through childhood? Be proud of what you achieved and be pround of your boys. You will live on through them.

Enjoy your wedding day, you are constantly in my thoughts. Be strong.

With love Sam xx

By Sam W. Posted February 18 2009 at 12:15 AM.

Jade.
This is so heartbreaking, along with every one else i was really hoping you would get better.
Your are an amazing woman and you should be so proud of what you have achived in you life.
I really hope you and jack have a lovely wedding day and im sure you will look very beautiful in your dress.
Enjoy the time you have left with your beautiful boys and remeber that they will never forget you.

take care jade my thoughts are with you and your family
lots of love lisa.x

By lisa. Posted February 17 2009 at 11:31 PM.

Dear jade
i just wanted to tell you that even though i have never met you i feel that you are part of my family, and i will miss you.
best wishes for your wedding day.
your boys are a credited to you
lots of love to you and your family, you will always be around

By joanne ryder. Posted February 17 2009 at 10:47 PM.

You are so brave. Your boys will be so proud of you.Just wish there was something i could say. You are an inspiration to me and i hope you have a fantastic wedding cause you deserve it more than anyone.
All my love to you,
Sammy xx

By Sammy. Posted February 17 2009 at 9:36 PM.

hi jade

i dnt fink u will read this but all im goin to say is ur a very well known person ever1 is owt there 4 u and u are very brave. ur children will neva 4get u
wat a great mother u are they will say

luv yah lotss u will neva be 4gotten

nikita xxx

By nikita. Posted February 17 2009 at 9:35 PM.

Jade,
My heart goes out to you, i have absolutely no idea what you are going through at the moment but i do really feel for you! Its so horrible to think something so terrible could happen to such a lovely person! I dont know how you do it but you just have so much courage and strength! You really are an inspiration to anybody and everybody, especially those two beautiful boys of yours.

I know without a doubt your boys will NEVER forget you. I read all your stories in the paper and it breaks my heart, i can guarantee that, despite your fears, your boys wont forget you... Too many people, including the ones you've probably never met, love and care about you and them to let them forget about you!! Me being one of them! The public is behind you, and your boys, Jade, hoping and praying for you to get better!!

I know you will have a lovely wedding because you are working so hard on it and you certainly wont need luck, you have enough courage and strength to get yourself through it!!! Have a fabulous day though, you deserve it!!

Alls i have left to say is just carry on being true to yourself and enjoy everyday!! You deserve all the happiness in the world!!

Take Care Jade, You will always be in our hearts...

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By Laura. Posted February 17 2009 at 9:33 PM.

Jade,
Read a book by Neale Donald Walsch called "Home With God." It will help ease any fears you may have about coping with what will happen to us all one day.
Ken
PS. Its not affiliated to any religion - its more spiritual.

By Ken. Posted February 17 2009 at 9:28 PM.

Hi jade
I dont know if u will ever read this its properly not important at this time.
I am sorry for what u all are going through it must be the worst feeling ever to leave your children,but u have great family and friends to help them through life.Please dont be scared my mum died of cervical cancer when i was 19 she was 47 and she wasnt scared and knew she couldnt fight any longer her time was up.It is so unfair that good people get taken and i still dont understand, your children will never forget u and im sure u ill always be talked about.My children have never seen my mum but they know who she is, it makes you and every1 involved so angry that know 1 can save .Enjoy your wedding day and the time you have left which i know u will, when the time comes u know you have had lovely children and they are going to be fine and you are now a wife.
All my love
Elaine Clarke
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By Elaine Clarke. Posted February 17 2009 at 7:55 PM.

Jade you have been so brave, I have been devastated following your news. I have loved you from when we first saw you on Big Brother. You kinda remind me of myself - bit gobby(!) bit dippy(!) but a caring heart and so much love for everyone. You have been a fantastic mum to your boys and you have every right to be so proud of them. You have been an inspiration to so many women, by showing your fight, your strength and your courage. You are a beautiful woman, inside and out and I wish you, Jack and your boys a wonderful wedding. Your boys will never forget you - how could they?? Stay strong and smiling Jade, my thoughts are with you every minute of the day.... With love always xxxxxxxxx

By Al. Posted February 17 2009 at 8:19 PM.

jade, it all seems so unfair & i cannot begin to tell you how sorry i am for you & your family, when you said before that noone can look after your boys like you can thats exactly what i would feel, but what you are doing for them they will rememeber forever & will never forget you because you are a fantastic mum, im praying for a miracle for you but if not i know you will be up there looking down on your boys, take care & have a wonderful wedding xxx

By nicola may. Posted February 17 2009 at 6:35 PM.

hey x

ive jus been reading this and my heart bleeds for you its so sad and no one in the world deserves this your so brave, your boys wil never forget you they wil always have you close to them in their hearts <3 and remember all your memories youve shared

By lucy. Posted February 17 2009 at 6:02 PM.

Dear jade and family
my heart goes out for you and your family i hope you have a great wedding.God bless you jadexxxxxxxx

By lisa. Posted February 17 2009 at 3:52 PM.

dear jade,
congratulations on your wedding.
Reading all the stories and posts here about people losing family members have left my in tears, but with your openness and bravery leading the way there may well be a few people in future that are diognosed earlier and fewer sad stories to tell. Thank you for making people more aware of this dreadfull illness, i wish you and your family all the love and happyness in the world
Amy x

By amy sumner. Posted February 17 2009 at 3:36 PM.

God bless you Jade and your little boys, they will be proude of you when they are old enough to understand, it is better to have loved and lived than never to have lived before, you leave lots of lovery memories god bless xx

By Vick. Posted February 17 2009 at 3:01 PM.

Hi jade soo sorry, as a mother of two little girls i feel your pain. From experience lemon in hot water is the best cure doctors will not tell you this but it works, auntie of my had liver cancer and they told her no cure and she would not take no for an answer so doing her own research she noticed that the best thing to do is to keep your inside clean like going to toilet as much as possible so she started squeezing fresh lemon into hot water she drink and 10 lemon a day a good immune systerm is the key to fighting this disease she drank it constantly and after 3 months the tumors have shrink and after seven years since the doctors told her there is nothing they can do she is still alive and doing very well as still drinking her lemon and hot water four times a day, her doctors were amazed and the tumors are almost gone it is a commitment but she want to live for her kids,and now i also live on lemon and hot water to keep me healthy so please jade you have nothing to lose by trying so for the sake of your boys try this and see the difference in your health, you will not be disappointed.drink it as much as you can, more than 10 if possible just to build up your immune systerm that is the key so go no sister girl fight and fight hard those boys need you. All my love and kisses Priscilla.

By stella . Posted February 17 2009 at 3:01 PM.

Say this to your boys Jade:

'I will always be with you'

My lovely Mum said that to me just before she died of cancer. It gives me so much strength each day -and I know that she IS always with me.

God Bless You

By Beanie. Posted February 17 2009 at 2:18 PM.

Dear Jade

My heart goes out to you Jade, you are a very brave woman. it is so unfair what has happened to you, I just wish someone could do something to stop this horrible desease you have.
You are a wonderful mother and I am sure you will be leaving lots of happy memories for your kids and for Jack, it is lovely you are getting married.
God Bless you.
Donna x

By Donna Kenny. Posted February 17 2009 at 1:43 PM.

dear jade i think you are a lovely woman and your kids will never forget you i wish there was somethink someone could do to help,you will be a angel for your kids now,well done for being so brave all my love goes to your family and kids all my love julie xxxxxxx

By julie. Posted February 17 2009 at 12:36 PM.

Dear Jade, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through at the moment. As a Mother myself I can't imagine not being around for my daughter growing up.

I really wish there was something I could do, a magic wand I could wave to make things better for you. I wish you the best of luck for your wedding, and I hope that those boys will remember you for the strong, loving and brilliant Mother that you are.
With lots of Love
Emma xxxxxxxxxx

By Emma Hoyle. Posted February 17 2009 at 10:11 AM.

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